♥HELL-OH. I think nailing jelly to the wall is easier than finding a good man!
Im out of this world, goofy and understated.
You are my sunshine, my only sunshine.
You make me happy, when skies are grey.
You'll never know how, how much i love you.
Please dont take my sunshine away.
Its just me♥
Dawn Suwanie.
Thirtieth May would be why.
Hey Monday, We The Kings, Ne-yo, Fall out boy, Nickelback, Lifehouse, Every Avenue & such, they rock!
Im melancholic, not emotional but sentimental and soft at heart.
Im very
very very very insecure.
I have the sweetest friends and the wildest imagination.
I dont forget anyone easily, so you'll always be a part of me.
I am me, and i will always be.
Jellybeans and plastichearts remind me of you. ♥
Your typewriter♥
Sunday, May 3, 2009 @ 11:37 AM
To the you of my reality.I've been thinking so much of late and i just cant help thinking that im a fool to love you like this.In self-defense, i tell myself its your loss. That you can never find someone who loves you like i do.Who would love you all the way from your perfections to your imperfections.To your very self-centered core. But sigh, thats only from one point of view. What about another point of view?That its my loss after all. That i've lost you, the you of my reality. The you that i love with all of me.That its gonna be my days and months and years of pain, tears and hurt. Whereas you, will get those days, months and years of joyous freedom.Whereas you can live, free of burden and such, finding someone else to love. And me? In despair.It makes me feel silly, it makes me feel like the fool for loving you like this still.. And having end up like this.But thats just one part of me. All in all, its being noble for love, right? I have you in my memories,Though they wont make up for having you with me by my side. I have you in your memories, you words in my heart.So what matters now? I dont really have much hopes in you now, im feeling nuetral about everything now.But what good does it do me? What should i do? Tell me, what should i do when i've lost my best friend?Wallow in self-pity or just keep on surviving on my own? Obviously i choose the latter. I know i can.I know i can live without you, but it just hurts. And whats worse is you dont even know nor care. Alright, im done with the ranting. Hahaha, and my most dreaded paper is on Wednesday. And im not doing anything about it. I should really really stop being so distracted and start concentrating.Whats with MOE and their crazy idea of education man, seriously. Haha, but im going out today. Such irony.Will be heading to Flyer, Henderson Waves, Marina Barrage and maybe some other places to take pictures.And when i flunk my MidYears, dont come flauting all your awesome results ( for those who mugged ) in my face!I will smack you so hard! Hahahahaha. :/ Okay so random crap going on. ADAM LAMBERT WAS IN THE BOTTOM TWO.Oh my mother freaking gosh! Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh. ]: And i think Danny Gokee will win, NOOOO. D:Ah but i cant do anything about it. Thats how unfair life is. ]: And i'll be lmao-ing when Singapore Idol comes. :DMay 16. HAHA. I will be rofl lmao lol and whatever twitty terms of laughing you can use on that day!Oh yes, and this year is going by REALLY REALLY FAST. Its already 4 months and 3 days into 2009.CAN YOU BELIEVE IT? Gosh, its like time is flying past. Ah but no doubt this has been the best year in years!And the faster it goes the happier i am! Then when next year comes, i'll probably look like some grey haired which hasnt been combed in 5 months,Wearing rags and carrying like, 10 tonnes of books around with papers flying out everywhere and a pen in my ear.With those big, geeky black specs and running around in loafers carrying a mug of 80cents coffee rushing to mug at some coffeeshop.THE HORROR! AHHHHH. O levels are a bitch. D: And after that it'll be like, me in 5inch stilettos in a absolutely glam dress,With like, some totally glam hairdo or whatever going for prom with my dearest girlfriends. Haha, thats a dream eh!Maybe i'll look pretty for once on that day! ;D Then i'll graduate and i'll be the happiest 16 year old on earth!Oh throw in the fact that i can LEGALLY watch NC 16! :D I know i sound retarded cause most of yaw are 16 but SHUT UP. Haha.Dont be a wet blanket. So thats my fantasy for now! And oh! I forget the fact that i will be looking at my certificate in 2011,And it might just say like.. L1R5: 8 and L1B4: 6. *Shrieks in some bimbo fetish* Thats my dream life..For the next two years! Then i'll migrate to Los Angeles, get found out by some amazing director or something,Hit the big screens and have my own brands. With my own mansion, a indoor and outdoor pool and my apartment sized closet,With all those glam, beautiful clothes..Ah, the sweetness. Okay, im awake from my dreams. :D Reality check..Ugly duckling in a 5room flat with great friends and flunking her exams and a broken heart. Thats more like it. [:Haha, doesnt hurt to fantansize right? Love ya'll! Cause it’s too late, there’s no escape, might as well face it.
Ain’t nothin I can do about it.
It’s been too long, it’s been too strong.
Im stuck in love with you.
