♥HELL-OH. I think nailing jelly to the wall is easier than finding a good man! Im out of this world, goofy and understated.
You are my sunshine, my only sunshine.
You make me happy, when skies are grey.
You'll never know how, how much i love you.
Please dont take my sunshine away.
Its just me♥
Dawn Suwanie.
Thirtieth May would be why.
Hey Monday, We The Kings, Ne-yo, Fall out boy, Nickelback, Lifehouse, Every Avenue & such, they rock!
Im melancholic, not emotional but sentimental and soft at heart.
Im very veryveryvery insecure.
I have the sweetest friends and the wildest imagination.
I dont forget anyone easily, so you'll always be a part of me. I am me, and i will always be. Jellybeans and plastichearts remind me of you. ♥
Your typewriter♥
Sunday, December 30, 2007 @ 4:32 PM
hello hello ! this is a dedication post [:
there are a few people i really wanna thank .
for they have helped me much in my walk with God .
i hope they read it barhs :D
here goes nothing ~ ;
Zyann ;
hey shepherd ! i really wanna thank you for being patient !
there are struggles i've had since th day you were my shepherd .
& til' now , im still in th midst of overcoming .
but you're still patient with me on it ! & helping me through it .
i've told you before ! that i wanna thank you for your genuine ,
sincere love & care . you dont just help me & love me because
it's your duty { & i know it isnt that easy to love me } as a shepherd .
but you truly , really wanna help me & grow me !
thank you from th very bottom of my heart . for th encouragements .
th love . th wonderful chrisrtmas gift [: th effort & so much more .
you've seen me through my best times with God .
you've seen me in my worst .
you've beared with my complains .
beared with my nonsense .
you're really tolerant ! [: hehe .
thank you for being a patient , loving , caring & sweet shepherd !
i truly truly love you !♥
Jogina ~
hey ex shepherd ! [: dont think you'll read this .
but im still gonna write it :D hahas !
remember when i backslided ? [:
you were my shepherd than .. & you didnt give up on me .
& when i came back . you accepted me & took care of me .
you put in effort & whereas i didnt account anything .
you have patience & when i finally opened up .
you gave me advice & help & a listening ear :D
you've seen me through my worstest of worst times .
& i truly treasure you !
thanks for being a great friend .
a wonderful sister .
a amazing shepherd .
a great careleader :D
your christmas card really made me tear !
i do hope that my life & my growth will be a even bigger affirmation for you !
because words cant express how thankful i am [:
so i shall use my life as my greatest affirmation !
erm . yeah ! yicong ! you've heard so many of my . nonsense .
concerning something in my life .
& you've encouraged me lots [:
despite my .. spiteful words at times .
im thankful for your tolerant spirit [:
you're my sheepmate , spiritual buddy , sister in Christ .
you're th one who's bringing this school to greater heights with me .
im thankful that God has placed you here .
to face problems with me .
to grow th school with me .
& to take up roles of leading GY with me .
lets hit our goal ! it can be done !
i'll love you [:
BK .
hey kangkang ! lol .
i still remember FF camp you called me eggegg ..
-.- ! okay yep . something that i really always never forget is ..
your faith in me :D faith that i'll overcome my struggles .
faith that i will hit my goal & lead my cg !!~~
& you sacrificing your time to listen to me talk nonsense [:
basically listening to me when i open up .
thanks for everything ! im really really motivated by your life .
you used your youth to serve God to your best .
& i wanna use my youth to serve God to my best .
because of what you've done , people were impacted .
& you've influenced me & MAD in my life :D
thanks for your patience & encouraging words :D
central a will support you all th way !
& i trust central a will all agree to this :D
agape !~ :D
& most importantly .
my Daddy .
heh . Daddy knows my heart .
Daddy saw everything .
i dont need to say anything but .
Daddy , i'll serve You all th way .
without You , this wouldnt come to pass .
{ too much love to express . }
hehe . yeah . just a few people who've ..
nurtured me in my walk with God these past few months :D
these five people are really special to me .
they made me to be what i am .
Jogina saw my faith renewed & my life transform .
Zyann brought me through my worst times & i thank God for her tact . heh .
i love my shepherds ~ ♥♥
i pray my life will be your greatest affirmations :D
agape ;
dawn;thROCKSTAR!♥
@ 1:33 PM
im 2 years old tomorrow ;D
spiritual birthday ; 31stdecember♥
no one to celebrate with D:
xoxo;
dawn;thNINJA!♥
@ 11:31 AM
Yo ! [: hehes .
yesterday hadSERVICE :D
was fun ! last service of th year .
WE HAD ONE GY CONVERT ! [:
yay !~ praise God :D
this shows that our 8 can be done ! amen ? [:
our goal by end January is 8 !
my goal by end January is 2 sheep !~
& this time im gonna chiong .
gonna give my all , give my best .
Satan ; its time to change your weapon [:
your previous weapon no longer has its effect on me .
HA . beat that , loser [:
im not gonna soften my heart to things of this world .
no longer gonna conform myself to th things of this world .
im a A L I E N ! & i dont care what others say [:
persecutions ? bring it on .
pressure ? im ready [:
peer pressure ? aww , that aint gonna work anymore .
my bigDaddyin Heaven is greater than all these craps .
my trust & faith in Him is not gonna falter .
He's th only one who died for me .
& if He isnt real .
who created th Heavens & pieced th sky ?
th amazing miraculous life transformations ;
its not possible for man to make them happen .
during praise&worship , we're not worshipping air .
so many unexplainable things .
too many miraculous wonders .
who else could've ordained th paths of our lives so sweetly ?
but a beautiful God who loves us so .
th joy in me comes from Him .
no one else could've replaced th pain i had .
th sufferings i brooded over ,overtaken by His Love .
im no longer gonna live my life in sorrow & fantasy .
im gonna live my life for th One who gave His for me .
:DDDD ! i've faced persecutions .
like friends saying " church again ? why so committed ?"
& th feeling isnt very good [:
but my Daddy is better !~ He's th reason im living ~
yeahhhh !~ He's th reason for my smile [:
ohyes ! i wanted to share something yesterday .
i saw this lady reading this book titled .
It's All In Your Head { Thinking Your Way To Happiness }
Secrets to Living a Life without Regrets .
& th thing that first came to my mind was .
th only way to true happiness & a life without regrets is .
th One which i've been talking about [:
so i kinda smirked :x oops . lols .
so i wanted to share this on my blog .
but whats more divine is ..
Ps Jasmine shared about th same thing during service !
God allowed me to understand even more clearly .
if you'd been to service , you would know th sermon , yep .
how to maintain joy :D
lasting joy comes from getting to know Christ better&better .
yeahhhh !~ lemme share what i learnt yesterday [:
; Life is basically trading off barhh .. yep .
becoming a christian , definitely has its sacrifices [:
but we're not legalistic !!~~ :D
& what we're giving up are like .. investments [:
Daniel told me that before too :D
& if we choose to give our lives to His Kingdom .
th reward will be awaiting us :D
but even if we choose to not do anything .
& slack away . God still loves us th same [:
His love is U N C O N D I T I O N A L .
it wont change , ever .
& in our relationship with God .
a crucial attribute would be trust :D
faith = trust .
if you have faith , you will trust .
trust in God's plan for you !
for He never makes mistakes [:
trust in God's way .
for He will lead you in th way everlasting .
know that He wants th best for you .
& testings & struggles are just part & parcel of this life .
God didnt promise us a carefree life ! but He promised His presence .
christian life isnt a bed of roses .
sometimes i think non-believers have fewer probs .
LOL . but thats just a thought :D heh .
yesterday i was talking to a bro & we shared our life transformations .
one thing common i think would be ..
vulgarities as punctuation :D
& like .. smoking .. etc etc etc .
& i remember last time ..
i would wake up at like .. 7+ than just go out & slack th day away .
those days were fun , true .
but beneficial ? { hah . } pure waste of time .
speech was crap . life was crap . but it WAS fun .
but its impossible to go back now .
cos i've burned th bridge :D & im glad i did .
i think i know what i would write on my flip chart :D
heh . its pppprivate & cccoonfiiidentiaaaal :x
when i think back on my life .
i see many things that i've done wrong .
many wrong decisions .
being silent at th wrong times .
i see sooooo many wrong doings !
& i gave my guilt & frustrations .
for a clear conscience & a purpose in God :D
& im glad i did .
xoxo;
dawn;thNINJA!♥
Friday, December 28, 2007 @ 11:24 PM
the Lord is my shepherd , i shall not be in want . He makes me lie down in green pastures . He leads me beside quiet waters . He restores my soul . He guides me in the paths of righteousness for His Names sake . Even though i walk through the valley of th shadow of death . i will fear no evil for You are with me . Your rod & Your staff they comfort me . You prepare a table for me in th presence of my enemies . You anoint my head with oil ; my cup overflows . surely goodness& love will follow me all th days of my life & i will dwell in th house of the Lord . Forever .
@ 10:26 PM
holiday homework !
Psalm 23 ; three times .
because i was late x.x
@ 9:05 PM
HI ! heh .
had CAM just now [:
who's your gamemaster ? [:
Yours Truly ;D hehes .
but i have to improve in leading games .
need to be more .. hyper & stuffs [: heh .
we played "BANG" & Murderer [: hehs . hope you had fun guys !
heh . & th worship song was nice [: & worship was refreshing .
i was reminded of my true identity .
my identity in Christ & i know i know i know im a Child Of God [:
CO-HEIR with Christ ! im a heiress ~ [: hehes . princess , heiress . blah .
we're all princes & princess's ! we're all royalty [:
never ever ever forget that you're a child of God .
despite all th persecutions , th pressure , cos its true .
when school reopens , th pressure's gonna flood you .
persecutions will surely come .
& Satan will wear us down & tear us down !
stay strong & stand firm ! let God imprint His stamp on you [:
amen amen . & shingyang shared something today [:
& i believe lotsa people were touched by it [:
oops .. my bible smells like eclipse :x
1 Cor 13-4-8a .
Love is patient , love is kind . It does not envy , it does not boast .
it is not proud . it is not rude .
it is not self seeking it is not easily angered .
it keeps no record of wrongs .
Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with th truth .
It always protectsalways trusts , always hopesalways perseveres .
Loveneverfails .
; Jesus is patient Jesus is kind .
He does not envy , He does not boast .
He is not proud , He is not rude .
He is not self seeking . He is not easily angered .
He keeps no record of wrongs .
He does not delight in evil but rejoices with th truth .
He always protects & always trusts .
always hopes , always perseveres .
Jesusneverfails .
God is love .
amen ? [: God is love ! without God , theres no love .
yesterday someone asked me . define love .
& i couldnt answer . because we were talking about ..
tht kinda teens saying that i love him that kinda crap .
& that person said ; define love .
& i couldnt answer .
why ? because GOD IS LOVE !
He is th way , th truth & th light .
before you love th imperfect people of this world .
you've to love God first .
because if you cant love a perfect God , how can you love
imperfect people ? [: true ? yes right ?!
today was a grrrreeeaaattt day .
& thanks donald duck [: for telling me all tht .
because now i know what im truly facing [:
i've grown more infaith[:
i wanna share my new year revolutionsresolution .
1♥ learn guitar & drums !
2♥CL by first quarter [:
3♥take up another ministry .
4♥disciple TWO shepherds of shepherds-to-be [:
5♥self discipline to .. study , exercise .
for spiritual & physical stamina !~ :DDD
amen amen ! yep !
i have faith & with faith ,i sure can [:
Loves♥
Th Ninja ; DAWN ♥
Lord it was You who .
Created th heavens .
Lord it was Your Hands .
That put th stars in their place .
Lord it was Your Voice .
That commands th morning .
Even the oceans & their waves .
Bow at Your Feet ♥
Lord it was You who .
Created me in Your image .
Lord it was Your Hands .
That put my life together .
Lord it was Your Voice .
That Lifted Me Up When I Fell .
You alone are worthy of my praise .
& i'll bow before Your Glorious Throne ♥
@ 12:04 PM
Hi ! [:
i just finished quiet time [:
confessed LOTSA things to God x.x
heh . yesterday i really experienced God's faithfulness .
because something really bad happened yesterday .
well to me it was really bad but actually it aint that big .
it was just a lil' past of mine Satan wanted to use to crush me .
hah , Satan you loser , it nearly worked but YOU'RE THLOSER .
my big almighty Daddy will always help me [:
He is with me all th time so Satan you loser , you cant get me [:
NEH NEH NI BOO BOO !~ ;p
heh . well what happened was .. i actually CRIED .
in 3 months of drained tears .. after i heard that ..
i actually flooded Egypt through flooding th Nile :x
well .. & i even grabbed & tortured my keyboard .. using my nails .
lol .. just to prevent from self-mutilation ..
i talked to zyann , she told me many many things & i listened .
but th tears wouldnt stop !
i asked yicong & though she didnt know th problem .
she encouraged me .. saying God's with me & facing & overcoming
with me !
& it helped but th tears didnt stop .
then .. two people { zyann & donal } gave me two verses .
Romans 8:31 & Psalms 139:23-24 .
Romans 8:31 helped .. but th tears wouldnt stop .
then .. i went to read Psalms 139 .. & i scanned through
the two pages .. consisting of Pslams 139-Psalms 142 .
just randomly scanned to distract myself ..
& despite th blurriness due to tears .
many many of th verses God spoke to me through them .
it was like IN YOUR FACE ! like .. God was saying .
" my dear child , im with you , why're you afraid ? "
& i felt warmth all over me .. literally experiencing God .
in my cold cold room .
& i was reminded of my most down times .
where God was just next to me , being my pillar of strength .
& all th pain , all th hurt , all th tears went away .
just like my beloved Daddy was wiping away my tears .
i knew that He knew how i was feeling .
& there & then , i knew Satan was trying to crush me .
& i took a parang & chased him away [: heh .
i really experienced God's faithfulness last night .
& its indescribable .
& shingyang's msn nick also encouraged me [:
its .. Experiencing God is not only in Nexus , it can be anywhere .
amen ! [:
yesterday was one of my most painful down times .
but God turned th tables around [:
because i looked straight to Him when i was fallin' .
& He held mein His Arms& carried meon eagles wings .
Loved You More♥
dddddawn♥{ hugs&kisses xoxo }
@ 12:17 AM
horhor [: God hasnt failed me [: He picked me up again . Daddy , You really wont give up on me ! [: Daddy . thanks . without You , i think i would've been shattered . You're faithful all the time [: & i learnt that th harder way ? Lols . Daddy . i'll be faithful too ! with faith , i sure can ! DE DE DER !~ STUPID SATAN ! YOU CANNOT CRUSH ME . DE DE DER ! MY DADDY WON AGAIN ! YOU LOSER ! :P BURN YOURSELF IN FIRE ! RAHAHAHA !
Thursday, December 27, 2007 @ 11:52 PM
why did this happen . Daddy , You have to help me . i cant do this on my own . im broken . im torn . Daddy . dont let me go . im afraid . im really afraid .
@ 10:16 PM
Yo mama ~ hehe .
today had CG retreat [: we went ..
E S C A P E .
th ultra mini disneyland ~ [:
ohyeah , theres this uber cute msn icon ..
it says .. someone should sue disney ..
for making every girl believe she has a prince charming .
L O L . cute ehs ? [: yeahh !~ today was .. pretty okay [:
we spend at least 2 hours queing up [: we played only TWO
games x.x but its okay [: hehes . had FUN with shep & duancong .
yesterday watch Alvin&The Chipmunks with LAOGONG :x
my laogong is real good to me [: always & forever i'll love you !
thanks for being the shoulder i can always lean on .
the ear i can always rely on . & my most loved too ! [:
despite all th quarrels , th big & small ones .
despite th differences . despite th times we're distant .
despite you always having to give in to me .
despite me being a total retard , a total psycho .
sometimes being pretty un-lovable .
you still stand by me , dearest laogong ! i'll be with you♥
i know i can always rely on you when i need someone [:
i know my laogong's th best [: LAOGONG ! Je t' aime♥
thank muchs [: for all you've given me♥ thank God for youu ~
so .. next up ..
alvin & th chipmunks is a M U S T watch !
you dont watch , you lose out !
it's AWWEESSOOMMEEEE .
Alvin is th ULTIMATE coolest ♥
Theodore is the ULTIMATE cutest♥
Simon is the ULTIMATE smartest♥
hehes & all are pretty adorable ! ♥♥♥♥
so .. yeap . i recently reflected on my life .
on what i've been doing & lots more stuffs .
& in just one day , i've overcome & applied many things [:
have been tapping on God's power &
God's Power is really working in my life [:
if you know me well enough , you'll know i use MSN nicks ..
to like .. describe how im feeling , how i think etc .
but well , for this period , i cant find anything to describe how
great God has been to me ,
how amazing His Love is .
how wonderful He is .
neither when im feeling down & out ..
can i find any words to describe .. but at times like these .
iknow i have God .
i wont let Satan keep that stronghold in me anymore .
wont let Satan keep me down & away from God .
GOD . I NEED DISCIPLINE!!!... help me !~
& recently have had some emo swings .
& thats bringing me like .. danger zone .
so .. really have to help me ,
shepherd ! have to help wo !♥
hehes .. alrights , i've nothing much to say .
i only know wang shao wei is boyfriend material [:♥♥ hehes .
Agape♥
Dawn♥
Tuesday, December 25, 2007 @ 12:10 PM
You say you're falling apart . Reached the end of the line . Just looking for your place in an ordinary life . No one calls you friend . No one even knows your name . You just wanna feel loved instead of all the pain .
You no longer have to say . No one's listening anyway .
Come here & cry on My Shoulder . I'll hold you til its over . I'll rescue you tonight . Let My arms be your shelter . Your hiding place forever . I'll love you more than life .
You're wearing a frown . Given up on hope . My Heart is reaching out . More than you'll ever know . Is your burden too much ? More than you can bear ? I'll help carry the load if you're willing to share .
You no longer have to say . No one's listening anyway .
Come here & cry on My shoulder . I'll hold you til' its over . I'll rescue you tonight . Let My Arms be your shelter . Your hiding place forever . I'll love you more than life .
You have had some hard times . Had thorns pierced your side . I know about what you've been going through. Tears of pain are falling down . It hurts so bad you're crying out . Your problems wont last forever . Let Me put you back together .
Thanks Daddy♥ I Love You♥ Thank You For Rescueing Me♥ For Loving Me♥ For Holdin' Me♥ & Protecting Me♥
ddddawn♥
@ 9:53 AM
nooo ! my face is copyrighted [: hehes . LIKE THIS PICTURE LOADS .
Merry Christmas Shepherd !
I Love You♥
@ 8:27 AM
a lil' boy of thirteen . was on his way to school . he heard a crowd of people laughing . & he went to take a look . thousands were listening . to the stories of one man . He spoke with such wisdom . even the kids could understand . the hours passed so quickly . the day turned to night . everyone was hungry . but there was no food in sight . the boy looked in his lunchbox . at the little that he had . he wasnt sure what good it'd do . there were thousands to be fed . but he saw the twinkling eyes of Jesus . the kindness in His smile . & the boy cried out . with the trust of a child . he said . take my five loaves & two fishes . do with it as You will . i surrender . take my fears & inhibitions . all my burdens , my ambitions . you can use it all . to feed them all . i often think about that boy . when im feeling small . & i worry that the work i do . means nothing at all . but every single tear i cry . is a diamond in His Hands . & every door that slams in my face . i will offer up in prayer . so i'll give you every breathe that i have . oh Lord , You can work miracles . all that You need is my Amen . take my five loaves & two fishes . do with it as You will . i surrender . take my fears & inhibitions . all my burdens & ambitions . You can use it all . to feed them all . i hope its not too small . i trust in You . take my five loaves & two fishes . do with it as You will . i surrender . take my fears & inhibitions . all my burdens & ambitions . You can use it all . no gift is too small . - Five Loaves Two Fish ; Corinne May .
Monday, December 24, 2007 @ 11:32 PM
The Best Christmas ♥ YO ! first , i would like to share my christmas with everyone . th christmas mood didnt actually hit me this year . yet , its the MOST MEMORABLE christmas EVER . you know why ? [: because i have God & the family He's given me . thank you Jogina , Jess , Daniel & Zyann . Jogina for the wonderful card [: touched my heart deeply . Jess for th amazing card too ! went deep down in my heart [: Daniel for the awesome POEM . hehes . & Zyann , for the most wonderful gift . hehes . these are the four people who i actually teared at reading their cards . & receiving her gift [: they've also been my best listening ear . the best person to hug ! hehes . also someone i truly treasure [: aww . Zyann gave me the best prezzie ! the CARE BEAR SHIRT i wanted for SOOO long & a GREAT book [: thank you so much shepherd ! i love you to bits ! okays .. i received .. 5 presents ? [: & LOTSA cards :D i received .. socks from brandon x.x necklace from yicong { thanks ! } handphone holder from chisun :D soft toy from nic [: candy cane that was so sweet it made my heart melt from Jogina [: & the present zyann gave me [: to those that received presents from me .. people like .. zyann , bk , dk , shingyang , yicong & some others . i hope you guys like the presents ! i really do ! hehes . this christmas was A W E S O M E . i hope YOURS was too [: we appreciated . laughed . played . cam-whored & though i wanted a countdown by the beach .. it's all good [: hehes . BRANDON & ZYANN , you guys are great leaders [: this christmas , my best present for you is .. my full support & my promise to grow :D my promise to become a CL . you've brought me this far , i've grown L O T S . i believe that you can bring me so much further . thank you ! much loves ! ;DDDD so .. yeap .. this magical season . i hope your wishes were granted [: you were blessed . my heart is MELTED . God has shown His Grace [: hehes . Merry Christmas People . This Magical Season . Snowflakes Falling On Me . My Love Overflows . He Showered Me With His Love . Blessing Me With The Greatest Gift . The Family I Have In Him . The Hugs , The Kisses , The Love . Theres Somethin' Bout This Christmas . That Hit The Soft Spot Of My Heart♥ { smacks x.x } I Love This Family Of God . & I Love You God ! You Made This Possible . Thank You So Much♥
Sunday, December 23, 2007 @ 12:33 PM
Heys [: yesterday had christmas service ! it was fun [: the drama was quite interesting & yeap .. CA hit our goals . PRAISE GOD . much much much thanks :D yay .. our perfect 777 ! GY GY , MARIST MARIST , FTP FTP ~ praise God , we all grew in our spiritual lives & it led to growth . & something that i really wanna share . i've overcome a struggle in my life [: 1oo% overcame . it's a testimony ler , not a fact thats like .. okay nvm .. hahas . but im truly blessed .. God really helped me 1o1% & totally brought me through this struggle . praise God ! & something else i really wanna thank God for is my family of God . so many many people that have cared for me & watched me grow . from a insecure , totally self-mutilating , vulgar & etc. ahlian . to one who's secure in the Lord . taking care of the temple of God . pure speech & actions . God has really transformed my life lots . He changed me . my heart . & i've matured L O T S . & really wanna thank those who gave me encouragement cards . esp Jogina & Daniel , i was really really really extremely touched . i could've cried while reading the encouragement cards ! Jogina ! ex-shep . i love you very very muchhhhs ! you've seen how i struggled , grew , backslided , came back . & now you've seen my changed life . my changed heart . you've helped me in 1million&one ways . & you've seen me through all my struggles . thank thank thank God for you in my life . you will never guess how thankful i am for you in my life . how blessed i've been by you . & your candy cane touched me lots ! [: love yahs . & Daniel , nicely written poem [: & the last sentene of your card made me wanna cry . Lols . thanks lots Daniel . you've made a great impact in my life . & thank God for everyone else thats encouraged me . helped me . brought me through many struggles . thank you so so muchhhhh . so .. yeap , after christmas service .. the party at palawan beach totally rocked :D i went HIGHHHH . Lols . Mandy & Jacq chased me EVERYWHERE . & i had to run & run & scream & scream ! gosh .. haha , but it was fun [: & this hols , i've grown alot in this area too ! being truth based not emotion based [: the emo Dawn no longer exists . yeap . yesterday was definitely fruitful & fun . God blessed me in soooo many ways ! so .. after that ton-ed .. hehes . yeah .. im tired .. B Y E . Agape♥ Dawn♥
Friday, December 21, 2007 @ 9:29 AM
Hey ! didnt update for quite long ~ [: hmms .. yesterday .. had evax than shepherding [: yeaps . so anyway .. im really really happy ! thank God ! because i settled my christmas presents [: well technically .. not all lah .. but those that are needed by .. this saturday [: those who receive my presents , feel honoured ! muahahas . Just Kidding :D so .. yeaps .. ahh ! i need to find my two lost sheep .. by end dec x.x God help me .. bang wo bang wo bang wo ~ yeap , today is sec one orientation .. lols .. feels kinda .. weird .. that im sec two lerhs .. ohman .. must really add lotsa lotsa oil ler .. this year was .. disastrous x.x so .. God , please give me self-discipline ! im lacking ALOT x.x yeahhh ~ drats .. i havent finish my christmas cards x.x still left bout .. 1o i guess ? x.x but all those SURELY very good derhs .. lols x.x LONG LONG affirmation [: hehes .. ohmytians ~ recently have been struggling with new problems . finally overcame that struggle [: thank God for BK & my shepherd & Daniel [: being accountable really helps [: so BE ACCOUNTABLE ! Ps Jeff said .. if we respond to becoming a CL . problems will come , frustrations will come , hardships will come . & thats like .. soooo right .. lols .. ohman , God , yi ding yao bang wo !~ rely on God for strength [: { relying in progress x.x } Just rely on God for strength , trust that He'll bring you through . & it's all eh-okay [: & when it comes to growing the group & your own spiritual life . intentional ! & do your best [: give not only your maximum , but your all ! & always always do QT ! hehes . because meeting God will refresh me all the time [: but yesterday .. mum interrupted .. she was like .. i wanna clean toilet ! take this away ! & im like , cant you see im busy ? rawr . Lols . these few days .. have been .. kinda .. evaxing lah , fellowship lah , spending time lah , shepherding etc ! it's all good .. but once i reach home , i zuo bo .. x.x just watch teevee all the way .. really wasting my time man ! but at least now .. i know what to do ler [: i have to do masquerade masks .. christmas card .. read book [: so .. bk's will be PINK [: muahahas .. gonna go buy material .. & i gotta go ~ hohos .. i dont know what to write anymore x.x mental block ~ Loves♥ Dawn♥
Tuesday, December 18, 2007 @ 11:20 AM
Hello [:
Today is another full day at home .
Such a waste of time .
thats why i decided to do christmas shopping .
SOLO . hahas .
so .. yep [: im only left with 1ocents of the 15obucks i had .
God , why am i so spurgle-y ..
wahhh .. two weeks of suffering ..
actually 8o% of that money went to blessing others ..
so its okay [: hehes .
yesterday had evax .. yeap .. not so good .. but
God will pour down His blessings [:
kay yeah , i actually blogged to share something .
BK gave me this verse that really convicted me [:
Acts 2o:24 , if you dont know it , you SHOULD memorise it .
the verse is ;
However , i consider my life worth nothing to me ,
if only i may finish the race & complete the task the Lord Jesus has given me
the task of testifying to the gospel of God's grace .
Yep . & it was PAUL who said it leh ..
the guy who .. practically lived a life of .. well .. everything ..
lols .. & really eye opening lor .. that he'll say ..
he's life is worth NOTHING . NOTHING !
wow .. so .. yeap ! one day after i've been through ALOT .
& i've overcome lotsa stuffs , i hope i'll say this to .
that my life is worth NOTHING until i finish the race & complete the task .
until His Will is done , my life is really worth NOTHING .
& without God .. i would be nothing .
would be dust ! He made me & He knitted me together .
really very amazed .. & every single day ..
i pray a prayer of thanksgiving [:
& as i look back on every lil' thing that happened ..
over the months ..
i see them all as wonderful blessings .
experience IS the best teacher ya know [:
im really thankful for all that happened .
be it good or bad ..
many things happened over the months .
& they arent actually positive memories !
but when i think back right now ..
i can see God with me all the way [:
sitting right beside me .. walkin' with me .
always with me . LITERALLY .
so im really really very thankful for all His blessings .
i've grown lots & i've moved on .
i've let go & it still hurts sometimes .. but ..
isnt that life ? [:
trust me .. all that i've been through is still nothing .
wahahahs ! & i've heard from lotsa friends that ..
they say that ..i've grown up ..
zhang da ler .. [:
we can all grow old .. but we might not grow up .
i've changed lots since June ..
not only changed outwardly ..
but inside i've really grown .. & i hope people wont see me
as .. that childish immature imbecile ..
cos i've really grown up .
but i still have my simple , childlike faith in my beloved Daddy [:
because after all ..
i think without Him , i wouldnt even have grown up [:
& i really wanna thank my leaders too .
they've helped me lots & lots & lots .
people like .. DK .. BK .. Jogina .. Zyann .
thanks lots [: they're the ppl that really inspire me lots .
& also taught me many things !
& really helped soften my heart towards God [:
thanks alot [:
aww .. getting very emo now .. Lols !
I LOVE THIS FAMILY OF GOD ~
they're better than my family anyway ..
erm .. okay .. so .. yeap [:
this is part of my life story .. [: part of ..
thank You for Your wonderful love .
Sunday, December 16, 2007 @ 6:05 PM
Lols ! Hello !
im bored :D
going out soon .
gonna shop til' i drop [:
ily you guys !
@ 12:22 PM
Hello [:
Im Bored .
Very Bored .
Evax .. Alone ? Not very me .
& Im Not Very Courageous .
Oh God .. What Now ?
Date With God [:
Doing That Already [:
& You Know .
Theres This Email .
Saying Satan Will Keep Us From
Looking At Nature To Stop Us From
Remembering God's Awesomeness
That He Created Something So Beautiful .
Well , Satan Cant Do That .
Because Nature Is My Second Love [:
I Can Just Look At A Small Flower &
Think Of God & His Amazing Love [:
So Satan , Thats One Down For You ! :D
Yep . & Today While Doing Quiet Time .
I Just Re Committed To God .
& Gave Him All My Fears .
Concerns .
Pain .
Tears .
Burderns .
Every Single Thing .
& I Feel Very Much At Peace Now [:
God Is Always There For You !
Give All Your Life To Him & Let Him Take Control [:
He Cares !~
So Yep [:
Im Still Slightly Sick .
& BK ! I HAVE FAITH LOR ! Muahahas .
Erm . Hehes .
eeks . have to stop the caps lock thing .. so ma fun ..
eerrrrr . yeapp yeap [:
i woke up today & saw the clock .. i stun tio x.x
it was 1010 ! i was like .. zomg .. im a pig .. LOL .
but i wanted to sleep somemore due to tiredness ..
but then i was like .. cannot .
sleep & doing something more fruitful .
choose one . DUHHHHHH ! Lols .
so i showered & started on christmas cards .
now im blogging . later im doing christmas shopping ALONE x.x
it's okay . more time with God ! [:
so .. have to go woodlands x.x wahhhh ! Lols .
okay lah .. actually planned to go taka .. but no one to go with x.x
so .. maybe some other time .
ZYANN ! GET WELL SOON ~ [:
wahhh .. yesterday i was chao emo lor !
then i repented [: cos i was being emotion-based x.x
sorry God ! x.x yahhhh .. yeap [:
lalalas ~ so i'll post again .. like .. later [: i've currently not done anything stupid .
Merry Christmas !
ohbtw !
theres CHRISTMAS PARTY ! wanna come rigggggggggght ?
haha .
it's at Palawan Beach [:
muahahas . FUN FUN FUN !
@ 12:15 AM
WAHHH ! today service was the ultimate man ! first . the drama was TEH coolest ! [: second . STEPHANIE { contact x.x } CONVERTED ! wahhhh ! praise God !~ i went all the way to tampines to meet her [: but it's allllll worth because SHE ACCEPTED JESUS !~ Stephanie you made the best & most perfect decision of your LIFE . one thing is my gift of discernment popped in . i saw Stephanie standing by the pillar alone .. & i was afraid . afraid to share Christ to her because im not very open & brave leh ! but then .. { ever thought that she might have probs in her life which need God ? God is the solution to all probs mah ! } so i was like .. ok God .. since the Holy Spirit prompted me . & you let me discern this . fine , i'll go . & i went & talked to her . man she will win the most friendly stranger ever award ! muahaha .. praise God [: so .. yep [: very happy today !~ she went with the East siders ~ cos she's from Dunman [: 1 soul SAVED ! praise Jesus ;D next would be the teachings today [: heres some points .. dont look at the greatness of the problem or how big it is . look at how GREAT our God is ! how BIG is He ! remember your magnifying glasses ? Magnify on your probs or on God . its YOUR choice . & God IS bigger than our challenges . He's LAO DA leh ! [: God is omnipresent , omniscience , omnipotence , omnieverything [: so always fix your eyes on ALL OF THE ABOVE [: & lets have that .. simple childlike faith amen ? like how a young boy looks up to his daddy . faith that his daddy will buy him that toy or somethin x.x lets have that kinda faith in God ! be like LIL' CHILDREN & trust God's Word as it is ! & during coreteam mean } Where Your Treasure Is , There Your Heart Will Be . if your treasure is in finding a boyfriend/girlfriend . then you'll give your heart & soul into a relationship or give your mind & strength to finding someone right ? if your treausure is in material possesions . you'll save alllll the money & splurge ! if you love God = your treasure is PEOPLE . & you'll go alllll out for PEOPLE & their souls [: & when you do things for people .. like travelling from pasir ris to jurong east . its EVIDENT . ppl will KNOW . & you know we always say " Be More Like Jesus right ?" when's the time we look MOST like Jesus ? when we give . be it the small lil' things like tithing , or giving lotsa effort & time & monehhh ~ to bless ppl [: dont keep that "me" philosophy of this soceity of instant pleasure . let's give , whatever it may be , with JOY . Jesus was joyful [: because He knew His one life would save ALL lives . & anyway in the end , nothing belongs to us but to God ! wanna build your beautiful hello kitty or spongebob palace in heaven ? start investing man ! dont take it as sacrificing but INVESTING ! [: then BK can build his 3km bed & take 20 min to get off his bed [: & when we give , feel that PINCH . today i was blessed with 15o bucks [: i tithed 1o% plus another 5 bucks . & there WAS a pinch though it was only 2o bucks . because allllll that money went to blessing ppl . christmas presents lah , blessing the unit lah , etc etc etc ! guess how much im left with now ? [: but i think .. though th money just disappeared like that .. it's worth [: anyway one of my top gifts is giving lah .. so .. HAHA . but of course be WISE lah ! [: all we do now WILL benefit us in the long run [: we tithe & give our time & etc not cos God needs it ! but because He wants us to experience Him ! & as christians . we cant have clenched fists . cos if we dont wanna Let Go ! if God has something greater & bigger for us , how are we gonna hold it if we dont wanna let go ? so lets LET GO & LET GOD . & allllllll we say .. like shepherd by end dec , CL by next year etc etc etc . is VALUE-LESS is we dont do anything bout it . talk is cheap . please dont NATO ! { no action talk only x.x } honour your word ! you say you will then you must [: God kept all His promises & He will keep them . wanna be more like Jesus right ? do it lah ! [:
Duet 31:6 . { Be strong and courageous . Do not be afraid or terrified because of them for the Lord your God goes with you , he will never leave you nor forsake you . }
