♥HELL-OH. I think nailing jelly to the wall is easier than finding a good man!
Im out of this world, goofy and understated.
You are my sunshine, my only sunshine.
You make me happy, when skies are grey.
You'll never know how, how much i love you.
Please dont take my sunshine away.
Its just me♥
Dawn Suwanie.
Thirtieth May would be why.
Hey Monday, We The Kings, Ne-yo, Fall out boy, Nickelback, Lifehouse, Every Avenue & such, they rock!
Im melancholic, not emotional but sentimental and soft at heart.
Im very
very very very insecure.
I have the sweetest friends and the wildest imagination.
I dont forget anyone easily, so you'll always be a part of me.
I am me, and i will always be.
Jellybeans and plastichearts remind me of you. ♥
Your typewriter♥
Tuesday, May 12, 2009 @ 8:14 PM
Isnt that picture just so rad?! Haha, that was so bimbotic. But i do like this picture. [:And my picnik isnt working, so i couldnt add a border to the picture, so sad. ):And thus i wont upload any picture first, but me and Qiyin actually went to Cathay and camwhored.At the kids play section. Where the playground is tiny. And i climbed in and out of little holes everywhere.Like under the playground. Haha. And the playground is shorter than me, by the way. ;DSo you can imagine. [: Pictures will be up pretty soon, when my picnik decides to love me again. And as for today, wanted to study at the school library with Sherlyn, but failed horribly.Ended up talking shit. Hahahaha! And also of course, sharing some weird experiences.. Which brought back memories.And also the getting angry with my samsung phone, CAUSE IT BROKE DONE. The memory card got virus-ed. ]:Now, i cant listen to music. How awfully irritating. On a lighter note, or not. I went for a workout session at 3pm!It might sound crazy due to the hot, burning sun.. But it was pretty fun actually! And yes, i went alone and it was fun!I ran with the sun beating on my arms and all. It felt really really good! From absorbing the Vit.D and the perspiration.Even the side stitch felt sweeeeeeeet. But yea, it was tiring. And i was the only idiot who ran at 3 in the afternoon!You guys should try it! The Vit.D really increases your memory space, haha. I came back and studied Biology.It was a fruitful day, [: It took my mind off alot of things and just gave me a rush of adrenaline. Twas cool.I also learnt something today, which i forgot. HAHA. My bad. And, i wanna listen to some sound advice.Not that the advice people have been giving me isnt sound! But its so..cliche and heard before and I KNOW I KNOW.Sigh. I should just really really get my mind off this stuff. Its like a drug or something, gosh. I should run more! Haha.Oh and a really retarded ant bit me. And i bled. Crazy ant. Has the teeth of a bulldog! Im not kidding, i bled!Haha! I have a new conviction! Its to lose fats! Cant believe im so fat lah. ]: Its so depressing to see my fats everyday!Just wobbling there. Omgggggggggggggggggggggggg. I sound so bimbotic! Haha. Its okay, excercise will help me slim down! ;DIts healthy and gives a sexy glow! Hahahahaha, im watching people cry on television! So amusinggggggggg!Oh i also learnt many things about myself late. I really wanna impress people, im a lil masochistic and im easily distracted.Also that because of many things i've said and not said, done and not done, i live in regret. D:Oh i remember what i learnt today! Fear stops you from achieving. Ya, i know! You've heard it before, shut up.Haha. But i'm afraid of so many things..Im afraid of the dark, im claustrophobic, i dare not be alone in small spaces,I dare not walk home alone at night.. Im afraid of trees at night.. Afraid of sleeping alone, being at home alone.Afraid of heights, of most animals. Afraid of supernatural stuff, VERY VERY AFRAID. Afraid to love.Afraid to speak. Afraid to lose people. Afraid of disappointment. Afraid to fail. Afraid of insects.Its like.. everythingaphobia! Except that i love water, thats an exception. Im even afraid of going to the toilet.Not because i'd drop in the toilet bowl! Its just creepy. Oh, and i exceptionally dislike watching horror movies.I dislike and am afraid of. SEE! Theres that word again. All these fears are ruining me. Screw it man, screw. it.Lost and insecure.
I've lost track of what im doing.
Trekking on danger zones.
I've lost sight of where im going.
Lost all of my sanity.
Im just a lil bit caught in the moment.
Maybe someday, i'll get myself out of this pity party.
Now, i just wish i had you, A.
