♥HELL-OH. I think nailing jelly to the wall is easier than finding a good man!
Im out of this world, goofy and understated.
You are my sunshine, my only sunshine.
You make me happy, when skies are grey.
You'll never know how, how much i love you.
Please dont take my sunshine away.
Its just me♥
Dawn Suwanie.
Thirtieth May would be why.
Hey Monday, We The Kings, Ne-yo, Fall out boy, Nickelback, Lifehouse, Every Avenue & such, they rock!
Im melancholic, not emotional but sentimental and soft at heart.
Im very
very very very insecure.
I have the sweetest friends and the wildest imagination.
I dont forget anyone easily, so you'll always be a part of me.
I am me, and i will always be.
Jellybeans and plastichearts remind me of you. ♥
Your typewriter♥
Wednesday, May 27, 2009 @ 6:49 PM
Feeling so helpless, and theres nothing i can do about it.Im bored. Gonna do this quiz. Kinda interesting. Dont care what you think. [:Be honest people! If you really have never heard of them. Don't mark it.ALTERNATIVE:[x] Breaking Benjamin [x] Paramore [x] Panic! At The Disco[x] Linkin Park [x] The Academy Is... [x] Coldplay [ ] Three Days Grace[x] Yellowcard [x] 30 Seconds to Mars [ ] ChevelleTOTAL SO FAR = 8COUNTRY:[x] Rascal Flatts [x] Carrie Underwood [ ] Leanne Rhymes [x] Garth Brooks [ ] Dixie Chicks[ ] Kenny Chesney [ ] Tim McGraw [x] Faith Hill [ ] Shania Twain [] Johnny CashTOTAL SO FAR = 12EMO:[ ] Hawthorne Heights [ ] Chiodos [ ] Forgive Durden [ ] Amber Pacific [x] The Red Jumpsuit Apparatus [ ] From First to Last [ ] Senses Fail [ ] Underoath[ ] Something Corporate [ ] Hit The Lights [ ] Dear WhoeverTOTAL SO FAR = 13INDIE:[ ] The Hush Sound [ ] Eisley[ ] Death Cab for Cutie [x] Dashboard Confessional [x] The Killers[ ] Yeah Yeah Yeahs [ ] Hot Hot Heat [x] Gym Class Heroes [ ] Franz Ferdinand [ ] Modest MouseTOTAL SO FAR = 15METAL:[x] Slipknot [ ] System of a Down [ ] Disturbed [x] Metallica [x] Guns n' Roses[x] Lamb of God [ ] Slayer [ ] Hatebreed [x] Killswitch EngageTOTAL SO FAR = 20POP:[x] Teddy Geiger [x] Ashlee Simpson [x] Kelly Clarkson [x] Jesse McCartney [x] Avril Lavigne[x] Pink [x] The Veronicas [x] Daniel Powter [x] James Blunt [x] Natasha Bedingfield[x] Ryan CabreraTOTAL SO FAR = 31POWERPOP/PUNK:[x] Hellogoodbye [x] Cute is What We Aim for [ ] Cartel [x] The Click Five [x] Fall Out Boy[ ] Rise Against [x] Good Charlotte [x] Bowling for Soup [\x] Relient K [ ] Anti - Flag[x] Simple PlanTOTAL SO FAR= 39RAP:[x] Ying Yang Twins [x] T.I. [x] Eminem [ ] 2pac [x] Jamie Foxx [x] Ludacris [ ] Lil' Jon[ ] Outkast [x] 50 Cent [x] Kanye West [ ] Notorious B.I.G [ ] Young JeezyTOTAL SO FAR = 46SKA:[ ] reel big fish [ ] The Specials [ ] MAD Caddies [ ] Rancid [ ] The Aquabats [ ] Sublime[x] No Doubt [ ] Madness [ ] Operation Ivy [x] Bob MarleyTOTAL SO FAR= 48ROCK:[x] Taking Back Sunday [x] All American Reject s[ ] Motion City Soundtrack[x] Avenged Sevenfold [ ] Angels and Airwaves [x] Evanescence [x] My Chemical Romance[ ] Drowning Pool [x] Green Day [x] Blink 182 [x] Madina LakeTOTAL SO FAR = 56CLASSIC ROCK :[x] The Beatles [x] Led Zeppelin [x] The Rolling Stones [ ] The Cure [ ] The Who[x] Pink Floyd [ ] Jimi Hendrix [ ] Queen [ ] Van Halen [ ] Poison [ ] ACDCTOTAL = 60Multiply your answer by 144 and then divide it by 100.60 times 144 is.. then divided by 100.. is 86.4, yeap. Thats how much i know. Thats the end of that!Well, skipped school today. Woke up not being able to open my left eye like yesterday. When i opened it,I felt like i got infected by a pig. Or not. It was all red.. And it was all heavy-lid-ed. I felt like my veins were going to burst.And i had a fever, and coughed like a wheezy old man. Haha. Okay, so i watched cartoons the whole day.Y'know cartoons are awesome? HAHA. They kill time superbly fast! Speaking of killing time,I find myself killing time alot. Isnt time supposed to be precious? I always said i would live everyday like my last.It so happens that no matter what im doing, i dont mind it being my last day on Earth. Even if it meant watching cartoons all day.But with all that time i've killed.. Could they be used for better purposes? To fulfil my dreams and such?I used to have so many purposes in life. So many things i wanted to learn. Drums, guitar, dance. All that drive for life.But now, i feel like im staring down at my life from the outside. Staring through the porch window into an empty apartment.With nothing but one girl. Sitting in the corner. Losing the will to live every. single. second. Somehow, life's like a joke now.A big. huge. joke. Im not saying i dont have friends and im some emo person and all that shit.Im not saying i always waste time. I do spend my time well, no doubt. But..i dont find that my life is for a good cause.Being in Hope, i spent all my time with people there. Literally all. Leaving Hope, i spend my time with a variety of people.But its so cluttered. Im this to her, that to him, this to them, that to her. None of these friendships seem..How do i put it? Seems so.. Superficial. Yes, superficial. Thats the word. I know some of them are supposed to be my goodfriends.Yea, they are. But i dont just want good friends. I want best friends. True friends. Not just good friends and close friends.I know its demanding. Why am i even saying all this in the first place? Gosh.To hell with it. Nothing much today. Just hope my dad's okay. He seems to be stuck in a serious financial rut.Oh wait. He's going to China during the holidays. Har d har. Hope he thinks about what he's doing, man.And. A huge apology to Sherlyn for ditching you today! The next time i skip school, i'll send you to school first.Not. Haha. And to Jieyun as well, as she said she felt really bored as everyone was asleep. HAHA. Thats how it is nowadays. The daily routine. Smack your heads on the table, plug in some ear pieces, blast some good music.And lull yourself to sleep. When the bell rings for break and dismissal, just wake up in grogginess and evacuate.HAHA. Its okay. Two more days. Just two more days. Cant wait for End years to come. Im serious!I find the exam-rush kinda funny. And anyway, its time to start pushing myself to study. I should stop getting one digit for Math.And to hell with C's for English. And also C's for all those other subjects im supposed to be good at.Im supposed to be mature and think. Not disappoint people around me. Though i highly doubt anyone is disappointed.Except..God. Damn. Lets not go there for now. So anyway. Im horribly bored now. Im gonna go find something to do.No not really.Im becoming what i never wanted to be.
I've broken so many promises,
Gone against so many morals.
Regretting many decisions i have made.
Missing people that i let go.
What the hell am i doing here,
Stuck in this rut.
Im drained, empty and helpless.
