♥HELL-OH. I think nailing jelly to the wall is easier than finding a good man!
Im out of this world, goofy and understated.
You are my sunshine, my only sunshine.
You make me happy, when skies are grey.
You'll never know how, how much i love you.
Please dont take my sunshine away.
Its just me♥
Dawn Suwanie.
Thirtieth May would be why.
Hey Monday, We The Kings, Ne-yo, Fall out boy, Nickelback, Lifehouse, Every Avenue & such, they rock!
Im melancholic, not emotional but sentimental and soft at heart.
Im very
very very very insecure.
I have the sweetest friends and the wildest imagination.
I dont forget anyone easily, so you'll always be a part of me.
I am me, and i will always be.
Jellybeans and plastichearts remind me of you. ♥
Your typewriter♥
Thursday, April 16, 2009 @ 7:41 PM
LINKS HAVE BEEN ADDED. Request to be linked.Popeye the sailorman! Poop poop! Im very disgusted, annoyed and irritated now. Very.There are alot of those stupid flies or male ants flying around my lights, dropping on MY LAPTOP! Yuck. And they wont go away. Still have like four, irritatingly gross!Ergh, i shall IGNORE. Something funny happened today, but i forgot what. >:[ Heh.Well, today was basically a crappy start, a chilled yet sparky morning, a horrible end.As POA was the last period, so its typically naturally horrible. :D Haha!If i was a rich girl, nananananananananana. Heh! OH I REMEMBER. Mr Oh bully me! ): He's so cute laaaaa, LOL.The irony of that sentence, haha. We stayed back for Math remedial; we meaning five of us, namely Younice, Jieyun, Emyi, Jasmine, Shimin and myself. And we learnt about Inequalities and i got horribly bullied by Mr Oh!He mocked me! Haha, but it was funny. :D He's like, one of the best teachers, and he's leaving after MidYears.Guangyang just loves to diss us, seriously. Take away our lives, idiots. Haha. Well yea, so yadda and blah.I barely remember what happened before Math remedial anyway, meh! (: Or do i? *Smug face* HAHAHA.Screw loose already, hahahaa. Yay! DJ Wars is on! [: And i just got some crap shit from Sherlyn, piss me off.Oh, Lyn didnt piss me off, (: What she showed me did. I shall NOT elaborate. I shall NOT BE A KID!%^&*()(*&^%$#$%^&*(*& AAAHHH, SH DAWN SHHHHHH! Okay, so yea. Im psyched for this weekend!Sentosa & K! Woooweeeeee. Im so gonna be broke! Dawn needs a job, really. I wanna do tuition!Dont laugh okay! I can speak in proper english without vulgar, grammar mistakes, vocabulary in tune. So diam!Hahaha, that was a pure contradiction. Well, i really wanna do tuition. Any idea where? Sigh, i need cash. ):And i wanna slap someone. Well anyway, im feeling very drained. So sick and tired of being sick and tired.Everythings draining the life out of me, sucking the joy out of me. Life's a vampire, sucks joy. Sigh.It sucks to feel like this, really does. It sucks to feel like everything you love is being picked and taken away slowly.Its like someone is slowly picking at pieces of your already broken heart, taking the pieces away one by one.Leaving you incomplete, shattered and hurting. Its that constant prick of your heart and you never know why.But then you see the things that're fading away, you see the fear in your eyes. You hear your very own silent screams.Its watching, wanting to do something about them leaving you so shattered, so vulnerable. But not doing anything.Its not that i do not want to do anything, its i cannot. If i did something, if i even breathed a word..That thread holding everything together would fray and snap. I breathe slow, count to ten, and give up.My mind works on ways to shun this all aside. But it seems my hearts set on figuring it all out. Sigh. What now?Everything seems okay, no one notices the stitches of my heart, the bonds of the relations slowly tearing apart.Its snapping one.. by one.. by one.. Its tearing me apart. With all i am, i fall. Hard. All of me, gone.Everything climbed, tiny steps.. but climbing still, to the top. My hopes rose, my faith increasing, my heart healing.And when i found my love for life, for the very first time. I found bubbles of joy in everyday, i anticipated each day.And with one sentence, it came crashing down, crushing me. How can i find strength to stand up again?I just breathe slow, count to ten, sigh and give up.I was young but i wasn't naive,
I watch helpless as everything crashes
And still i have the pain i have to carry
A past so deep that even you could not bury if you tried.
I would fall asleep,
Only in hopes of dreaming that everything would be like it was before,
But nights like this it seems are slowly fleeting.
They disappear as reality is crashing to the floor.Y
