And you will live in my memories, forever more i swear.♥

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♥HELL-OH. I think nailing jelly to the wall is easier than finding a good man!
Im out of this world, goofy and understated.
You are my sunshine, my only sunshine.
You make me happy, when skies are grey.
You'll never know how, how much i love you.
Please dont take my sunshine away.

Its just me♥

Dawn Suwanie.
Thirtieth May would be why.
Hey Monday, We The Kings, Ne-yo, Fall out boy, Nickelback, Lifehouse, Every Avenue & such, they rock!
Im melancholic, not emotional but sentimental and soft at heart.
Im very very very very insecure.
I have the sweetest friends and the wildest imagination.
I dont forget anyone easily, so you'll always be a part of me.
I am me, and i will always be.
Jellybeans and plastichearts remind me of you. ♥

Your typewriter♥

Wednesday, April 1, 2009 @ 5:28 PM

Good day world. Im at Starbucks with Mister Kau, after one day of horrifying
Internet failure, Wireless@SG has learnt to love me too! :D Xoxoxoxox. (:
Well, im in a better mood today. Though all those screwed up sec ones ruined my day. But after all, the lesser the pain, the easier i get through the day, so good for me!
Im gonna go work on my geography project soon, but a little summary about my day.
The morning was fun, after pranking Sherlyn, oh sorry, i forgot.
HAPPY APRIL FOOLS. :D Anyway, i told Lyn i fell and there was alot of blood. Then alot of crapsxzxzxzxz, so Lyn was worried. Then i said.. Hahahaahah, Happy April Fools. :/ Hahaaha!
Then i pranked Donal that i had dengue and was in the hospital. (: And he said he wont care about me anymore!
And i pranked Adha as well, saying that i had pierced my tongue. (: And he wanted to kill me. ): Haha.
I oh-so-love April Fools. :D Well, i pranked Mr Oh too! I walked into class saying 'Mr Oh! Never zip your pants!'
He looked down and said 'REALLY?', then i said, happy april fools. (: And i did horrible things!
I took Indah's bag and hung it outside, she didnt know at all! Til like, an hour later. And i took Lyn's Frank,
Put it on top of the whiteboard, but she got mad. ): So i pranked Younice instead, taking out all her pens,
Returning her the empty pencil case and putting the stationery one by one on top of the board.
It was funny seeing them jump for the stuff, shorties, HAHA. :/ Im tall! (: Being self-confident here! :D
So yea, thats about it.. It was good while it lasted. Didnt have a good laugh though, thats the bad thing bout today.
I've learnt that i have to laugh everyday! Laughing certainly eases my pain, my hurts.Yea, i need to learn.
So i'll end here, i might post again. We'll see.

I've stopped hoping for your texts,

I've given up on the sweet talk and honeyed words.

Im sticking to cold, flat reality.

The reality that you broke me, without knowing.

/Edited.

Im home. And everything's hurting all over again. I know i know i know, Dawn, dont think, give up.

Dont tell me all this shit, guys. My heart says dont give up, im not giving up, okay.

This is for you. I wanted to meet you today, to pass you some important stuff, important to me, maybe not for you.

Im not gonna ask you out for awhile, unless you ask me then of course i'll agree, but im not asking.

I just realized you've changed in a span of one week. How fragile can we get? Seriously.

This hurt im feeling, is the exact same pain that lasted two years. But because of you, it went away.

But now, you're bringing me back to the same nightmare. The same pain, the same void feeling day in, day out.

Im being self-centered now, being not concerned about you now, being all me me me now. I know.

But i dont want to feel this way, i want you back. I want us back. You found me, i lost you.

This is for all of you, im not Dawn anymore. Im not happy, im not joyful, im not happy-go-lucky.

Im hurt, im broken. Dawn's gone, i cant find her anymore. I wonder, who's living this life now.

I cant find any strength to go on, to say 'dont worry, he/she will realize it someday, press on.'

I cant find any strength to say 'Dawn, the pain wont last, love to your best. Be the best you can be.'

I cant find any strength to say, 'Dawn, you treat others the way you want them to treat you. Do it.'

No, i cant. All im feeling now is down down down down down. All i can do now is watch.

I miss the old Dawn, i miss the way i wanted to treat others to my best, i miss all i had. I miss you, i miss me.

Im sick and tired, deep down i just want to give up. But i know if i give up, i wont be able to live.

I cant live without you. What else can i do but tolerate, what else can i do but love even more.

Its hard for me to look at the mirror every morning and see my reflection, its harder to see my eyes.

I want you back. I want us back. I want everything back. But is it possible?

Its been days since i've smiled from my heart,

Days since you made me laugh.

Did you realize?

Do you sense my pain?

You have yet to answer my numorous questions.

Im left with a heart full on raw wounds.

Oh by the way, thanks for being part of my departure, all of you.

/Re-edited.

Just now, Mister Kau said BK once told him.

'When it comes to backsliding, never give up on that person. Keep that person informed. Sometimes, they just need attention.'

I think this is something very true and that will help alot.

Even after Mister Kau left for 2 months, his cg is still texting him from then to date.

But i guess im not so blessed to have that. No more texts from any of you, i guess once again, im forgotten.

By the people most dear to me. Amazing, Dawn. You're that detestful.