♥HELL-OH. I think nailing jelly to the wall is easier than finding a good man!
Im out of this world, goofy and understated.
You are my sunshine, my only sunshine.
You make me happy, when skies are grey.
You'll never know how, how much i love you.
Please dont take my sunshine away.
Its just me♥
Dawn Suwanie.
Thirtieth May would be why.
Hey Monday, We The Kings, Ne-yo, Fall out boy, Nickelback, Lifehouse, Every Avenue & such, they rock!
Im melancholic, not emotional but sentimental and soft at heart.
Im very
very very very insecure.
I have the sweetest friends and the wildest imagination.
I dont forget anyone easily, so you'll always be a part of me.
I am me, and i will always be.
Jellybeans and plastichearts remind me of you. ♥
Your typewriter♥
Wednesday, April 29, 2009 @ 8:00 PM
And and and and POPEYE THE SAILOR MAN, TOOT TOOT, He lives in a garbage can, Toot toot. Then i forgot. Heh! Well, today was a averagely odd day, i guess. Haha! With the exams,What not weird, right? Haha. Basically, what Ms Aljunied said yesterday came TRUE.Damn her words. She said yesterday: Tomorrow, Suwanie might just find the questions foressay unappealing and end up not writing as well as she can.Erm. Darling Ms Aljunied, it really happened. My reaction to the essay questions were, WTH?!Yea. Thanks, Mrs Wong who set the paper, you're such a sweetpea. -.- And the passage was..Atrocious. Im telling you, i will go to China right now and scream in their faces if i could! The passage was undoable!Its unhumane to give fresh sec3's such a ridiculously challenging paper, in the aspect of vocabulary especially!
Who the hell knows whats PERENNIAL when you're freaking fifteen years old! And why do i care about China's economy?!My gosh, set a smarter paper will you? *Smacks* Okay, im done ranting. [: And Cartel with the dears as usual.And so on and so forth and yadda and yadda. Oh and i just realized something which i just totally forgot. :/Oh heres whats perennial. –adjective
1. lasting for an indefinitely long time; enduring: her perennial beauty.
2. (of plants) having a life cycle lasting more than two years.
3. lasting or continuing throughout the entire year, as a stream.
4. perpetual; everlasting; continuing; recurrent.
–noun
5. a perennial plant: Daffodils and tulips are perennials.
6. something that is continuing or recurrent.That was simply out of random curiousity. :D I have nothing interesting to post about today. D: Im a boring person.Ah, i just remembered. I realized today that i keep shunning away from myself, from reality, from speaking out.Does anyone have any idea how to say stuff thats in your head verbally? Gosh, it annoys me sometimes.I seem so lively and.. i dont know, in the virtual world, i can speak with proper english and say what im thinking..Whereas when it comes to reality.. Especially one to one situations, my mouth fails me and i cant even say the right things.Thank goodness i live in the 21st Century, not 18th Century London or something.. I would probably die. :/Get killed for keeping silent or some shit, haha. Ah sigh. Sometimes i just wish i could be straightfoward..Even in the virtual world i hide a kabizillion things i wanna say. Its like theres this part of me thats just.. there.And its just waiting to be heard.. But im like, preventing it from being heard. Theres this like, whole part of me people dont know.And i just wish i could find someone who saw beyond me, who could see that part of me no one knows.Who could see that underneath all my sarcasm and brave words, through all the nonchalance.. Theres the real me.Ah gosh.. Really hate this feeling. Really hate feeling like this too. I feel like a horrible person. ]:I wanna migrate, i wanna start afresh.. I wanna go to a place where no one knows me and everyone gives me a clean slate to start with.No matter how much people you know say they're willing to give you a clean slate, the impression you have made on them doesnt change.That impression causes them to think of you the same way as always and you dont have a chance to change at all.And what with just having lost my best friend. Damn, i really need to pull through this phase of life.And trust me, im almost there. Just not there yet. Sigh, i cant even find the strength to study right now.I wanna spend my life reading, is that okay? ): At least i get to live in someone else's world for awhile, sigh.I still believe in every word you said, in every kiss you gave.
As i muttered those three words, i knew it would be forever til i forgot.
Even a walk in the desert couldnt drain the flowing love i have for you.
Its alright if you're gone, alright if you're not mine.
Your broken promises and soulful kisses, they might be gone.
But you will be alive in my memories; as alive as the very last time i saw you.Y
