♥HELL-OH. I think nailing jelly to the wall is easier than finding a good man!
Im out of this world, goofy and understated.
You are my sunshine, my only sunshine.
You make me happy, when skies are grey.
You'll never know how, how much i love you.
Please dont take my sunshine away.
Its just me♥
Dawn Suwanie.
Thirtieth May would be why.
Hey Monday, We The Kings, Ne-yo, Fall out boy, Nickelback, Lifehouse, Every Avenue & such, they rock!
Im melancholic, not emotional but sentimental and soft at heart.
Im very
very very very insecure.
I have the sweetest friends and the wildest imagination.
I dont forget anyone easily, so you'll always be a part of me.
I am me, and i will always be.
Jellybeans and plastichearts remind me of you. ♥
Your typewriter♥
Sunday, March 29, 2009 @ 7:52 AM
Unrequited love isnt meant to be.I dont know what to say, or what to do. As usual, im at a loss for words. And anyway,Words can barely express how im feeling. A week has gone by in the blink of an eye.Chaos has taken over my life. The turmoil of feelings i experience everyday. All i want is a listening ear, and a shoulder to cry on. Or should i say, your listening ear,Your shoulder to cry on. So much has changed between us since the very first day.I miss how you would love me despite my inhibitions. I miss how we were sweet. It seems like things are fading.I hate it when you dont reply me when i tell you how i feel. I hate it when i share my life with you and you dont seem to care.I hate it when things screw up around me and you're not there. I hate it when i cry and i know that you dont see.At times, you're cold and indifferent. So much so that i can predict what you're gonna reply. It hurts, big time.It hurts to know that im not what you are to me. You are my life. I am a part of your life. Thats a big difference.I said i tend to overlook flaws, but this is just simply hurting too much. I cant read your mind, my dear.I dont wanna be clingy and a pest, but i just wish i knew you more. You dont share anything with me.And yet, i open up so much to you. Its not easy, it really isnt. It takes me courage and sheer pain to open up.But because of how i treasure you, i choose to. I can say that i love you too much. Yes, i believe i can.Tell me if im saying anything unreasonable here, i will listen. And i will change. Im sorry she's everything im not.But im very very sure i love you more than she does. Love. My definition is making the person you love smile,No matter what pains it takes you, no matter how much it hurts you. You love someone, you make him/her smile. Yesterday, a friend shared with me a story of her sister's. Her sister's boyfriend is married, And yet he chooses to stay with her despite having a wife. And at home, his wife waits up for him every night,Cooks for him. Asks no questions when he arrives home at 5 in the morning and massages him before he sleeps.Does she love him to much? I think she does. But she just wants him to be happy, isnt it?So, are you happy? A question i've asked time and time again. If it has to be like that, then i'd rather not lose you.Like the wife; she'd rather keep him by her side than make a fuss about it and lose him all together.But somehow, there are many things i would like to be able to share with you. Not just the physical things.It feels like im going out with a stranger, i only know one side of you. And it ends there.Well, i dont know what to do anymore. Dawn will be Dawn, only knowing how to bottle it up.I tried, i really really tried. But as cliche as it goes, it takes two hands to clap.I dare say,
Im easy to love.
Just love me tender and share your life with me.
Am i that hard to love?Y
Take a good look at my face,
You'll see my smile looks out of place.
Yeah, look a little bit closer and its easy to trace,
The tracks of my tears.
I need you, need you.
Outside im masquerading,
Inside my hope is fading,
Just a clown since you put me down,
My smile is my make up,
I wear since my break up with you.
-The tracks of my tears, Smokey Robinson.
