♥HELL-OH. I think nailing jelly to the wall is easier than finding a good man!
Im out of this world, goofy and understated.
You are my sunshine, my only sunshine.
You make me happy, when skies are grey.
You'll never know how, how much i love you.
Please dont take my sunshine away.
Its just me♥
Dawn Suwanie.
Thirtieth May would be why.
Hey Monday, We The Kings, Ne-yo, Fall out boy, Nickelback, Lifehouse, Every Avenue & such, they rock!
Im melancholic, not emotional but sentimental and soft at heart.
Im very
very very very insecure.
I have the sweetest friends and the wildest imagination.
I dont forget anyone easily, so you'll always be a part of me.
I am me, and i will always be.
Jellybeans and plastichearts remind me of you. ♥
Your typewriter♥
Friday, March 20, 2009 @ 7:31 PM
Newly discovered lovely band! Every Avenue! :D They're good, really good. Makes me want so many albums right now! I truly need some Yusof, urgh! Good news is,Mom says if i bake stuff for her friend to sell, she's paying me! I get paid for passion! :BSo anyway, im feeling so not me right now, actually, for the past three days.Or maybe its just the real me. :o Thats interesting, i should really do some soul-searching.So many things have happened inside me and around me for the past few months,I really think i've lost myself in this whirlwind of life, dammit, back to my turmoil craze again.Kinda makes me think of what i've been doing for the past few years, the friends, the life..I've changed so much, yet so little since my life began, which was 3 years ago, thats how I define it.The people around me have also been constantly in shift mode, just coming in and going out as and when they please.Its pretty horrible having to see it happen over and over again, haha, just try being me for a day, feel what i feel.Im being super self-obsessed now but i dont really care, i want to be self-obsessed right now! Pfft.And Adha says that what he hates most is my low self-confidence, haha.. Do i really think so little of myself?Or maybe its just everyone's just that much more awesome then me! I choose the latter. (: I mean seriously,Everytime i read others blogs, observe others, get to know others more, it seems theres something about them thats so much better then myself. Even those i cant look at, those that make me cry, those that hurt me, yaddayadda.Maybe i should move away to a faraway place and start all over again since the people here wont give me a fresh start.Yea, i wanna do that.. Yea, like a magic carpet would come swooshing through my window and take me away.You wish, Dawn, you wish. Also, i should learn to stop pushing the blame to others and at times myself.Damn, lifes getting so much harder. I've really learnt how to give up recently, is that good or bad?Well, for one of my latest choices, im sorry to all those i've hurt, i have no idea if you guys read my space though.But really, i am sorry, i know all you guys must've felt something, either joy or sorrow i dont really know about that.But whatever it is, to all those i love and who love me, im sorry a hundred times over and just to assure you,Im very sure of what i am doing. Convincing me wont be an easy feat, but i'll listen to whatever you have to say.I know i seem irresponsible, or maybe i am, and i know it seems like a dumb, unworthy thing to do.But as always, Dawn will be Dawn, or should i say Suwanie will be Suwanie, im different, always have been.If you dont know im different, how i think is different, how i feel is different, and my reactions are different,You dont know me.Haha, something suddenly blink-ed in my memory! Something Charlenedearest said in my christmas card,She said, sometimes when i see you smile, i see something sad and difficult happening behind that smile.Haha, truly truly that surprised me. But i hope from today, that smile will be genuine, aye girl? Haha.Theres so much i wanna do, so many things i want to say.. But todays not the day.. Although they say,Any time is the right time. But i say, my time is the right time to do my thing. Yes, God? (: Oh and lastly, i still believe in God, im holding on to my belief in Jesus, i still believe God's Word.And my love for God is enough, dont question me about that, thank you very much. No offence, though.Yea, thats all this humanbeing has to say for today, i hope. Im boring you with my chants right? Poo, okay bye!Where were you when I needed you most?
Why did you leave me alone?
We gave up before we gave it a chance,
And I don’t understand.
Back to where we left off, baby.
“How you been and what’s been new with you lately?”
Just forget it, it’s the same old runaround.
You build me up just to let me down.Y
