♥HELL-OH. I think nailing jelly to the wall is easier than finding a good man!
Im out of this world, goofy and understated.
You are my sunshine, my only sunshine.
You make me happy, when skies are grey.
You'll never know how, how much i love you.
Please dont take my sunshine away.
Its just me♥
Dawn Suwanie.
Thirtieth May would be why.
Hey Monday, We The Kings, Ne-yo, Fall out boy, Nickelback, Lifehouse, Every Avenue & such, they rock!
Im melancholic, not emotional but sentimental and soft at heart.
Im very
very very very insecure.
I have the sweetest friends and the wildest imagination.
I dont forget anyone easily, so you'll always be a part of me.
I am me, and i will always be.
Jellybeans and plastichearts remind me of you. ♥
Your typewriter♥
Sunday, March 29, 2009 @ 12:21 PM
I cant find the damn strength to stand up, im breaking apart.Staying at home the whole day isnt helping my emotional breakdown.From yesterday til today, breaking down nine times isnt helping me much either.You tell me then dont cry, and its supposed to be easy? Im a girl, my friend.I have emotions, and i have a heart. They all tell me to be strong. I cant keep on staying strong.I try, i do. But when i experience something like that, you dont expect me to stay strong, you just dont.One week, just one week. And we have become this. Tomorrows special, for me.But maybe it'll be a train wreck. You dont seem to care at all. I wonder if things will change from here.I wonder what you're thinking about what i said in the previous post, wonder if things will change.For the past few days, i've been living a nightmare. After speaking with Bernard and hearing what he had to say,After sitting at the back and looking at the people i sacrificed my life for, after hearing Daniel and what he told me.I feel like im stuck in a this whirlwind of crazy happenings. I dont know what to do right now.After reading Charlene & Melissa's blog, it hurts even much more. After you came back, it hurts even more.Its like everything anyone says right now pierces through my heart, my very alive heart.Things are screwing up before my very eyes. My life is coming to a halt infront of a threatening knife.And when im most vulnerable, you're. not. here. I dont wanna irritate you. I wanna give up.Its trying to know what i mean to you.
What i wouldnt give for you to be next to me right now.
I wish you understood how im feeling, how much i need someone here.
Wish you know how i do not want to break down.
But its killing me,
From the inside out.
P.S. I need you.
