IMPACT, Remember this? At all?
Hello. Im feeling super stressed and emotional right now. Dont feel like Dawn at all.
Maybe cause nothing Dawn-ish has been happening nowadays, sigh.
So anyway, shall be a baby later on. (: Today was a pretty fun day!
Class was quiet though.
I did my POA homework. :D And so on and so forth, and Jonathan was called a..
SUCKLING PIG. :D And Sherlyn, a laughing hippo. :B
Sherlyn got so totally punked during reccess.
We pulled off her rubber band, passed it around everywhere.
Threw it around, made her catch, made her jump.
Then, we took her phone, took out the phone, threw the pouch at her,
made her chase around the round table for it.
Then she forgot her wallet,
we passed it to Syahindah and in the end it was returned to her still. Haha, poor thing!
Well, after school, Jieyun skipped netball, AGAIN.
So did many others, haha. We went for lunch at Macs.
All those Sec1's should seriously shit themselves laaaaa, no respect at all.
And the way they stare, my gosh.
I will poke your eyeballs out, i tell you! Pfft.
Anyway, Joyce, Sara, Jieyun, Sherlyn & I headed to Cartel to study.
I ordered the Urban Bread Pudding and we had a good laugh at Cafe Cartel, like seriously. Sherlyn is mad. :/
And Joyce is crazy, Sara is psychotic and Jieyun is plain retarded. :x So yaaaa. Coordinate Geometry test tmr.
Should just throw myself into strong currents and go decompose, pfft. Anyway, today was a fun day, in some ways.
So on my way home, i was thinking.. How much i miss being in MOS, how much i miss the old Impact.
I doubt many of the people will read this but i hope many of you do, i really miss MOS and Impact.
I dont wanna go away, you know? But you people leave me with no choice. I feel so friggin excluded now,
I cant bear to go back. I havent officially left and you guys have stopped messaging about MOS meets,
Who knows i might think it through and choose to pull up my socks?
I havent even officially left and i stopped receiving notice about Impact meets, i havent even officially left and i stopped receiving texts about CAREGROUP.
For goodness sake, im still alive, i still know whats going on, im still here. Yet you guys treat it like im not here anymore.
So i should just go away and stop feeling so hurt, so unwanted. The treatment is extremely unjust and it hurts like crap.
You guys really screw me up sometimes you know. Really. Do.
I wanna keep most friends, shant name, but are you allowing me to hold on to our friendships? Are you?
Think about it, guys. Seriously reflect, have you gone the extra mile to come reach out to me again?
Have you already lost 99.999999999% of hope in my passion coming to flames again by God's Hand?
I think you have. Because i feel so unwanted and not needed right now that i wanna run away even more.
Read this passage well and clear. Get my message in your head. Im not being mean, objective whatever.
Im being truthful. Im so hurt now. I dont feel like a part of anywhere.
I thought i would still be able to feel like im part of MOS and of Impact, to always be a Christ Ambassador.
I feel lost and just simply completely non-existent. The treatment is so exclusive.
Not a part of anywhere. Losing all i have. Is this what its all going down to? I dont even have anyone to ramble to right now. Tell me God, is this what happens? Why aren't you saving me? Take me away, please.
I'll do whatever it takes, to turn this around.
I know what's at stake, i know that i've let you down.
And if you give me a chance, believe me i can change.
I'll keep us together, whatever it takes.
Will all of you just give me another chance?
I mean it when i say ALL OF YOU, not just CA.
Im swearing off singlish!
