♥HELL-OH. I think nailing jelly to the wall is easier than finding a good man!
Im out of this world, goofy and understated.
You are my sunshine, my only sunshine.
You make me happy, when skies are grey.
You'll never know how, how much i love you.
Please dont take my sunshine away.
Its just me♥
Dawn Suwanie.
Thirtieth May would be why.
Hey Monday, We The Kings, Ne-yo, Fall out boy, Nickelback, Lifehouse, Every Avenue & such, they rock!
Im melancholic, not emotional but sentimental and soft at heart.
Im very
very very very insecure.
I have the sweetest friends and the wildest imagination.
I dont forget anyone easily, so you'll always be a part of me.
I am me, and i will always be.
Jellybeans and plastichearts remind me of you. ♥
Your typewriter♥
Wednesday, March 25, 2009 @ 7:24 PM
Everything i lived for.Im done, i am. Looking at all these old pictures make me plain nostalgic and deeply hurt. Char,dearest, i read your blog. I know completely what you're getting at. I know its not worth it, but im choosing to stay with God, not leaving God. This is the first im publicly declaring this, so i should just go on. Im leaving not because you people exclude me, not just because i feel unwanted, constantly being forgotten and all that other stuff i said yesterday. They were true and part of the reasons why im leaving, but theres so much more to why im leaving. I remember the promises i made, the words i said. I know im letting you people down, and i know some people are going the extra mile. Cant you see how hurt and upset i am? Cant you see how broken i am? Cut me some slack, please. I want and need a complete, whole break. I know if im not doing well spiritually, i should stay on and re-fan my passion, and build up on everything again. But this is what i have to say. I Am Fine Spiritually. Im Still As Close To God As Ever. Im Keeping My Spiritual Maturity.Note this, when i come back someday, i'll be even more spiritually mature then i am now. Bring th test on.Im not shitting about this, really am not. I may be not as 'holy' as i was, but i know who my God is,I know how real He is, i know whats right whats wrong, whats God's timing, what's in His Word. I. Know.My sheep are the only thing that have kept me going when im super super down, now, the CG under me is as well.But tell me, people, have i lost all these? Yes, i have. Maybe not my sheep but i can keep my sheep close like friends.But the CG that kept me going, gone. I made that happen to me, so blame me. Yes, okay. Whatever!Im just very extremely elated that KCP has hit their goals and is finally completed. That makes me content enough.And right now, im gonna leave. I've had enough, I AM DONE. I miss those people who cared for me,Those people who cared for me enough to catch me when i fell, to hear my heartfelt thoughts, allowed me to open up.I miss those talks outside Meridien with Brandon, at Oasis with Brandon, at X29 with Daniel.It makes me wanna cry, wanna throw a fit, wanna rewind time. Brandon, i remember what you said.Forever, i will. Remember this? 'Dont give up, xiao jie.' You dont know how awful i feel by giving up.You're one person that has made a major impact on my life, that made me push myself so hard i cry myself to sleep.Losing you as my leader, losing the chance of having you lead me when i rise up in leadership, that hurt.But letting you down, going back on the words i say, that breaks me. So all i can say is, im sorry. Truly deeply.I hope you read this. If anyone wants to know why, bananasandcrazylittlenuts-@live.com.sg is where i'll be willing to explain.Im accountable for each and every of my actions. And im extremely sorry for everything. To my dearest MOS, i miss you guys so much. Seeing your pictures everywhere without me, my heart just breaks.Im no longer a part of you guys, so all i can say is that you guys gotta pull up your socks & lead well okay?People are depending on you. And to the most lovely Impact. The pacts we made, the meetings we had,I miss them so much. So so very much. Always be sure of your identity and keep those smiles yea.Okay, super long post. Yea, whatever it is.. I do hope that i'll keep those friends i love so much. ):So anyway, today had NAPFA, it was fine. And the DM rocks, 3e5 lets petition to change Diana Koh!Ah, whatever, today was a fine day. Tomorrow will be a better day. Yea, i hope it will.Bye people. You're gone til Saturday.What day is it? And in what month?This clock never seemed so aliveI can't keep up and I can't back downI've been losing so much timeWha
What day is it? And in what time?
This clock never seems so alive.
I cant keep out and i can back down.
I've been losing so much time.Y
