♥HELL-OH. I think nailing jelly to the wall is easier than finding a good man!
Im out of this world, goofy and understated.
You are my sunshine, my only sunshine.
You make me happy, when skies are grey.
You'll never know how, how much i love you.
Please dont take my sunshine away.
Its just me♥
Dawn Suwanie.
Thirtieth May would be why.
Hey Monday, We The Kings, Ne-yo, Fall out boy, Nickelback, Lifehouse, Every Avenue & such, they rock!
Im melancholic, not emotional but sentimental and soft at heart.
Im very
very very very insecure.
I have the sweetest friends and the wildest imagination.
I dont forget anyone easily, so you'll always be a part of me.
I am me, and i will always be.
Jellybeans and plastichearts remind me of you. ♥
Your typewriter♥
Wednesday, February 25, 2009 @ 9:55 PM
Great classmates, great class, great friends, great him.I do wonder, alot, what would happen if i lost any of these, any of them.How do i phrase this so that i do not sound emotional..Im a contented kid who fears losing this contented life? Im a melancholic who simply thinks too much and is afraid of being alone?Sigh. I can still vividly recall the past two years, in school and out.I had slowly lost my close friends, slowly resigning into my own world.I had slowly clenched my fist, closed up my heart, slowly kept to myself more and more.I got my heart broken, i resigned even more into my own depressed state.No one saw what i was going through inside, no one saw the wound that kept bleeding, no one.This year has been going amazingly great though, a shocking difference from the past years. Like i was telling Jieyun, i got along so much better with the guys in 3e5 this year. (No, im not a flirt. -.-)I still remember when the guys last year said i was scary, and everyone called me emo. Please, im not emo! Just a burned out, sentimental melancholic. (: Well, since this year has started different. And we're moving into March.Im thinking its time to hold tightly to what i have and reach out for what i lost again. My own world should be trampled on and made into a simple hut for me to seek refuge. Though i should practice being morally and principle-y right. Is cannibalism morally right? Even for the deprived?Is eating frogs even morally sound? Or maybe not frogs since they're ugly anyway, but cows? And ostriches!Maybe i should turn vegeterian. ): Nah, tried that and failed. Is being who you're not morally right?Two-faced world. Ergh! Its like falling in love with a celeb and never being able to even see him face to face.I wanna be able to put a smile on your face.
I wanna be able to be there for you whenever you need me.
But i failed.
Theres no one i hate being more then i hate being me. (Or not.)
I listen to people talk, and i think.
I think of how we talk, of how i choke on my words.
Of how i choke back my tears.
I think of how much i just wanna be able to be that someone who is always able to cheer you up.
And my heart breaks.
