Today, am not in th best mood t post .Came t blog cos i felt a need t express something [xSigh , basically ! I went out w Qiyin & Matthew today .We went Bugis & PS . Thats about it .We crapped alot [: & Qiyin ! I love you , seriously [: sometimes i truly wonder if you treat me as your own .
th times you've cared for me ,
seem so far away .
nowadays , you've been th dread of my life .
i hear your screams & shouts ringing in my ears .
slamming doors & hurting words fill my mind .
all i want is your love .
all i need is for you t understand my feelings .
you dont understand me .
you really really dont .
Mum , Dad .
i thank you for th things you've done for me when i was little .
i know you will never read this .
yet , i dont know why i keep typing .
you've played a big role in my life .
but right now , you're a constant nightmare .
do you love me still ?
what am i t you now ?
are my feelings in your consideration ?
when you tell me that im useless ,
is my heart in your consideration ?
when you slam doors in my face & scream in my face ,
when you scold me & give me your attitude for no reason ,
is th pain of my heart in your mind ?
when you've decided t take away my allowance ,
Is my LIFE in your mind ?
who am i t you ?
just someone you can throw your rubbish on ,
or your daughter ?
are you gonna treat me like sis ?
i may be young , but im more mature then you think i am .
th problems you guys are going through , th pain you're putting me through .
th tears i've shed for this so-called family .
i really dont care anymore , about th problems we're having .
i cant care anymore .
you've cornered me t a point tht i think its all hopeless .
tht i think ,
Im Hopeless In Your Eyes .
That Im Just Some Girl You Never Loved .
Do you know how i feel ?
I love you , do you ?
You leave me feeling torn & broken .
I hope you're happy .
