had napfa today ! it was fun [xwe were really high ! eh , coke ? ;Dcrapped alot & did pretty well .I THINK MY HEAD IS FLAT ! during incline , i went t let go of th bar & hit th ground flat .Three Times . & it didnt really hurt ! :xthen th guy was laughing at me , IDIOT ! -.-I GOT TH VEST I WANT ;DDDD YAY , mummy bought it .so blessed luh ~ ok , i really dont like th song american boy -.-ANNOYING . yeayea ~ & later i have t go t Qiyin's house & collect stuffs .th bodoh went t east coast ! hahahaha :xtmr's Clique & BBQ , kinda excited [x but also very very tired , needa wait for bodoh .& orange must've fell into th water , OHWELL ;Dc'mon c'mon ! rain dowwwwnnnnn ~even someone i've known for not yet a month ,
cares more then you .
whom i've known for years .
then you , whom i've known for my whole life .
then you , whom i see every day .
then you , whom i tear for .
sometimes , its hard t love ,
& also hard t be loved .
have my efforts of wanting t build friendships gone t waste ?
only you have th answer t this question .
for i'd continue caring & loving all you ignorant people ,
til' th day i die .
despite th countless times you've hurt me ,
& you may not even know it .
not even sense th cut thats penetrating deep into my heart & me , breaking .
i'd just tell myself ,
' gotta be strong , just keep on bein strong . '
people ARE right after all ,
true friends are hard t find .
especially when i exist in a world ,
whr i am non-existent .
people come & go .
leaving me in tears & hurt .
leaving me drowning in my own despair ,
crumbling in my own desperate world .
does anyone care ?
anyone which your single smile makes a whole lot of difference t me , bother ?
all i have , is to look up .
& trust & hold on for dear life .
for you people are tearing me apart .
