you put on quite a show , you really had me going .hello ! ton-edddd yesterday (: actually , okay .. so yesterday , went for shepherds' meet at AMKMH (: thens .. chiong-ed to Nexus , took 2omin from AMK to Nexus (: so zaaaaaiiiii ;D thens .. reached Nexus , saw quite a number of familiar faces ^^ thens , went to Recept to help out camp decor , thens .. yeaaaaa , came back to sembawang & met qiyin (: showered , went out .went woodlands , thens .. vistapoint, met alex, bought some stuffs .. qiyin went crazy (: thens i went high on green tea .. yadda yadda yadda . went to th park thingy ?.. hahas , played swing & all . amazingly , i wasnt tired th whole night ! second time alr :DD thens i dont think i would wanna sleep anyway , i was wearing contacts x.x hahas . theeeeeens , went vista again x.x ate breakfast .. ACTUALLY , th stupid ahpek there laaaaaakohhhhpiiiii :D then qiyin drank milo & i slept ((: hahahaaas :x then when we woke up .. i did some spastic stuffs .. like 'Im awake ! Im awake ! -big grin- " then this other ahpek was staring , LOL . super funny luhs . then ate breakfast , then slacked a while more & went home at 8.2o barhs (: reached home , slept all th way ! until about 2 , then woke up & showered(: qiyin's now asleep ^^ haaaas :x okayes . so thats about it barhsxz , went my grandmama's house too (: got hongbao's ^^ belated birthday , hehes. okayes , later goin FarEast & collecting PSP either tomorrow or sunday ^^ yeaaaaa ;D i love my koalabearrrrrrr . xoxoxoxoxoxox .
I WANT BUNNNNEEEEEEEEHHHHHHHHHH .things have changed.
i really dont wish to say this.
but i feel so taken advantage of.
i long for someone who loves me no matter what.
but everytime im with you ,
my heart's all screwed.
im already broken .
& you just add on to the pain.
is what we have so vulnerable ?
am i that suckish ?
am i such a friend to you ?
everything i do , i have to do with caution.
everything i say , i always have to remind myself to hold back.
when what i say & do isnt wrong .
but just the imperfections of me & what i wanna help you with.
is this what true friendship is about ?
what th heck is life about ?
people leaving & people coming .
slammin a door in your freaking face ?
and just screwing you over ?
then i cant help but say life must be a big joke .
if friends cant last & be real with each other .
and tolerate each other & understand each other .
what more lovers ?
God , tell me .
is life just a big joke ?
a stand up comedy on a stage for all to laugh at ?
to get screwed over & heartbroken & just torn from the inside out ?
its just so ironic .
Backstabbers .
they say it behind you & stab you in the front .
pure irony .
you dont know what or who they're talking about .
but deep down , you just know it .
& you have to admit .
you dont wanna care & it still hurts .
especially when you love & treasure someone .
My Life's Not A Joke ; ♥
