♥HELL-OH. I think nailing jelly to the wall is easier than finding a good man!
Im out of this world, goofy and understated.
You are my sunshine, my only sunshine.
You make me happy, when skies are grey.
You'll never know how, how much i love you.
Please dont take my sunshine away.
Its just me♥
Dawn Suwanie.
Thirtieth May would be why.
Hey Monday, We The Kings, Ne-yo, Fall out boy, Nickelback, Lifehouse, Every Avenue & such, they rock!
Im melancholic, not emotional but sentimental and soft at heart.
Im very
very very very insecure.
I have the sweetest friends and the wildest imagination.
I dont forget anyone easily, so you'll always be a part of me.
I am me, and i will always be.
Jellybeans and plastichearts remind me of you. ♥
Your typewriter♥
Friday, May 23, 2008 @ 10:09 PM
Okay , i have lots of pictures to upload but i cant get it on my com , next time , ya'll ! :Dokay , so .. today .. really have lots on my mind , these past few days , there're things .. even the heart cant put into words . you know the feeling when you've so much to say , yet nothing to say ? you've so much to say ! but the words just dont fit . you just cant find the words . i shall bomb & see if anything good comes out . i've been thinking about the 5seconds level8 earthquake in SiChuan . i mean , think .. logically ? i dont know , whatever . its a Level8 earthquake of 5 seconds and .. how many people are .. gone ? forever . & by the way , they're really gone forever ok . not all those stupid BGR & you break up & that person is gone that kinda gone , you still get to see his / her face on the face of this earth . these families have lost their loved ones for good . gone & never to come back . & its just a mere 5seconds okay . hmm , i keep asking God .. why He'd let this happen . to let something be shown ? i really still cant figure it out . plus its not only the earthquake in SiChuan , what about the cyclone in Myanmar{s?} ? thank God there're no more tsunami's . btw , its pronounced tze-na-mee . so please , its not suwanie , thank you very much(: so .. yeap , pondering over these disasters & find myself very blessed . Singapore is so blessed ! ^^ & you know the dumb thing about world dying in 2o1o ? IF THE FREAKING WORLD REALLY CHOOSES DOOMSDAY FROM 2O1O - 2O13 , I AM GONNA FREAKING FLIP ! seriously ! i dont spend 4 EXTREMELY BORING TERRIBLE HORRIBLE FREAKISHLY BAD AND TOTALLY CROOKED YEARS in secondary school to DIE th day im having my O LEVELS ! as i've said countless times , if its CONFIRMED that the world will end in 2o1o , imma drop out as of this minute ! (: i dont care about certificates , o levels , a levels , what B4 or A1 or whatever ! DONT CARE ABOUT UNIFORM LUHHHHH ! imma go do something more worth my time . so i pray hard , the world DOESNT even go for its doomsday on 2o1o , if not , th world at least PROVES to scientists & all those dumb people who get things wrong 9o% of the time to be smart enough to confirm the end of the world . please dont leave poor 1994 kids thinking about their suffering-for-nothing years in the torturous high school ! :D anyway the weather is merciless , the sun is gracing us with its presence too much ! we're too graced , yo ! x.x i think the world really is dying . even if the world doesnt die , we're all gonna die soon . the world's gonna burn up & KABOOOOOOM ! seriously luh , EVEN NIGHTS ARE WARM & STUFFY ! the heat is getting on my nerves man ! i cant even shower & come out without having to feel like i didnt shower at all ! c'mon luh , dont waste my resources eh ? okay , enough bout all this . theres some other random ? stuffs bugging me . one would be human love , or something near there , whatever (: another would be .. the harvest . AHHHHH . OK ! harvest first ! i tell youuuu , im so bugged by this okay ! of course , its like .. yeaa , i feel th pain , God , i feel the pain . the sweet sweet pain , HA . ohman , eh , c'mon luh , i know th school aint barren . 18 for Facing The Giants . you call that barren ? AHHHH , GOD . cant stay like this ! time for the school to BAOZHA . God , i've been preparing Your fields , i'm trying my very bestttttt . God , i really want to see this harvest before camp God ! i dont want to go to camp feeling like a POS { Piece Of SHIT } , God i know , i know i know i know that You can make a miracle God ! God , in Your Word , You say , the harvest is plentiful but the workers are few . USE ME GOD ! HERE I AM , USE ME !~ YOUR SERVANT IS LISTENING . God , Your servant is listening ! i know You dont have ASD or You're hard of hearing , i know You've heard all my lil' & big prayers , all my cries & pains , all the desperate cries ! i know You hear them God ! im waiting for Your timing God , but let not 'God's Timing' be an excuse , for if our lives are not right , if our hearts are not right , if im not prepared , how can we expect harvest ? (: God i pray for myself , to be strong&biblical ! to grow stronger in You & to become who You want me to be & i pray for your people , CentralA , God , i pray they be Your instruments , faithful to You & obedient to Your Word , that WOW will be TRULY our motto , Lord . we'll live according to Your principles , Lord . You know how & when & where , its time Lord . i lift this unto You . Kay ! thats it for that then .. urhm , abit personal :/ heh , okay i shall continue on the last but not least . the #$&*^@#( thing called 'love' . i just cant help wondering , what in the world is love ? KEY WORD . WORLD . God is love . but .. haha , people see that ? Lols . but in the world , what is love ? how do you know you love someone ? how do you even know what love is when you cant love a perfect God . LOL . is love .. feeling your heart beat faster when you see him ? is love .. hurting when he doesnt speak to you ? is love .. thinking about him all the time ? is love .. what the world defines it to be ? or is love .. putting someone's joy before yours ? lets say , i say , i love God and i also say i love some guy . i love God would be .. serving Him , ministry , academic , holistic , family & the rest . & why ? because i love God & i want to please Him (: then i love some guy would be what . ? LOL . the only reason for a relationship i can think of right now is the concept 1+1=more then two . okay , not in the reproduction context . LOL . but in the KOG context . come to think of it .. if , someone from my age range , from 13-19 , is in a relationship , can it last ? whats it for ? sometimes hearing people say 'i love him' or something like that . it just gets me thinking , whats love whats love whats love ? is it melting in his arms ? lol , is it just that feeling in your heart where it makes you all fuzzy & warm ? dont feelings fade in time ? a relationship .. can someone remember someone forever ? is that possible ? i dont know . LOL . i never tried it :/ can something so special & dear last deep within your heart forever ? any answers ?! LOL . & how can you tell if someone is 'The One' ? you mean theres a small voice telling you ? i really dont know either ! any answers ?.. cux .. i dont get it ! whats so ..................sweet . whats so .... 'awww' , whats so .....'forever' , whats so ...amazing . about something that will end in time ? i dont know , maybe there're some couples who last from high school til' they get married & have a child . { credits to Sherlyn's parents . } but out of HOW MANY COUPLES ? i dontknow .. how many people will be able to keep a promise ? how many will be fulfilled promises ? how many empty ? how many cheap words ? how many times are girls gonna get fooled & guys gonna get played ? { okay , not only do guys suck okay , haha (: } how many times is 'i love you' gonna be used .. cheaply ? how many hearts are gonna be left scarred ? why the hell would you wanna brood over something thats over over over over . memories kept , but .. memories are like .. flashing videos .. without sounds nor feelings . memories kept , feelings alr gone . so whats the point of .. drowning yourself with pain that ... is .. non-existent ?.. you're just making up the pain with the ... black&white past .How to love imperfect man when you dont love a perfect God .& this other thing called friendship . what ... is friendship ? what are friends for ? literally . we tend to hurt those we love the most ... we also tend to hurt those we hate the most , HAHAHAHAH . okay , that was random . but i really want to know . What Are Friends For ? Neglect ? Love ? Hurt ? Comfort ? Tolerate ? Endure Together ? The Things A Heart Cant Explain .xoxo ,
♥DS ; <3
