Hi ! [:
i just finished quiet time [:
confessed LOTSA things to God x.x
heh . yesterday i really experienced God's faithfulness .
because something really bad happened yesterday .
well to me it was really bad but actually it aint that big .
it was just a lil' past of mine Satan wanted to use to crush me .
hah , Satan you loser , it nearly worked but YOU'RE TH LOSER .
my big almighty Daddy will always help me [:
He is with me all th time so Satan you loser , you cant get me [:
NEH NEH NI BOO BOO !~ ;p
heh . well what happened was .. i actually CRIED .
in 3 months of drained tears .. after i heard that ..
i actually flooded Egypt through flooding th Nile :x
well .. & i even grabbed & tortured my keyboard .. using my nails .
lol .. just to prevent from self-mutilation ..
i talked to zyann , she told me many many things & i listened .
but th tears wouldnt stop !
i asked yicong & though she didnt know th problem .
she encouraged me .. saying God's with me & facing & overcoming
with me !
& it helped but th tears didnt stop .
then .. two people { zyann & donal } gave me two verses .
Romans 8:31 & Psalms 139:23-24 .
Romans 8:31 helped .. but th tears wouldnt stop .
then .. i went to read Psalms 139 .. & i scanned through
the two pages .. consisting of Pslams 139-Psalms 142 .
just randomly scanned to distract myself ..
& despite th blurriness due to tears .
many many of th verses God spoke to me through them .
it was like IN YOUR FACE ! like .. God was saying .
" my dear child , im with you , why're you afraid ? "
& i felt warmth all over me .. literally experiencing God .
in my cold cold room .
& i was reminded of my most down times .
where God was just next to me , being my pillar of strength .
& all th pain , all th hurt , all th tears went away .
just like my beloved Daddy was wiping away my tears .
i knew that He knew how i was feeling .
& there & then , i knew Satan was trying to crush me .
& i took a parang & chased him away [: heh .
i really experienced God's faithfulness last night .
& its indescribable .
& shingyang's msn nick also encouraged me [:
its .. Experiencing God is not only in Nexus , it can be anywhere .
amen ! [:
yesterday was one of my most painful down times .
but God turned th tables around [:
because i looked straight to Him when i was fallin' .
& He held me in His Arms & carried me on eagles wings .
Loved You More♥
dddddawn♥ { hugs&kisses xoxo }
