♥HELL-OH. I think nailing jelly to the wall is easier than finding a good man!
Im out of this world, goofy and understated.
You are my sunshine, my only sunshine.
You make me happy, when skies are grey.
You'll never know how, how much i love you.
Please dont take my sunshine away.
Its just me♥
Dawn Suwanie.
Thirtieth May would be why.
Hey Monday, We The Kings, Ne-yo, Fall out boy, Nickelback, Lifehouse, Every Avenue & such, they rock!
Im melancholic, not emotional but sentimental and soft at heart.
Im very
very very very insecure.
I have the sweetest friends and the wildest imagination.
I dont forget anyone easily, so you'll always be a part of me.
I am me, and i will always be.
Jellybeans and plastichearts remind me of you. ♥
Your typewriter♥
Monday, November 26, 2007 @ 11:15 AM
hello .
errr . haha . almost one month have not blogged .didnt receive much tags either .. hehes ..errs . yep . just .. wanna blog out some stuff .. to feel .. better .errr .. well .. i've found my true joy .. my true love ..well actually that was found almost two years back ..but only now have i really understood barhx ..of course it's God :D err .. i've .. let go of something ..that's been holding me back for the past 5 months ..i spoke to God about it .. and .. on th 23rd ..i didnt sleep a wink .. th whole night .. i dont know why .. but i understood ..everything .. on th 24th :D that days service .. was .. ministering ..and not only that .. i had a fresh encounter with God :D hees . errr .. wanted to post something .. just for interest .though no one may read my blog .. it's still a vent for me .. hees . hmm .. i've always lived in an Ice Palace .. apparently my house..when i was younger .. th word "home" reminded me of .. warmth ..a little family celebrating a joyful christmas by th fireplace .. sharing stories ..and .. you know .. the typical american homes & families you see on teevee .but as i grew up .. i realised that .. my family wasnt like this . my house was like ..a hotel .. for us to just sleep and eat .. just like a bed&breakfast hotel .th condition we live in doesnt matter cos in th end . it all boils down to th family . not th cement walls . & right now .. i think my family is made up of ..broken souls , broken hearts , broken promises , shattered hope .everyone wants to leave . no one wants to stay . he wants to go to . who knows where . she wants to go back . since my sister's already left .. staying somewhere now .. i just dont see th point in staying on .. but it's not like i can leave .. then .. well .. for th past few years .. i just .. cant be bothered anymore how this ..family is like .. cos it's like .. better if they get a divorce anyway .. everyone would be happier .. but it's all 'cause of me none of them wanna leave .. ah drats .. right now .. right here .. only God can bring some light .. but then .. none of them believe .oh man .. God .. really .. help me out here .. :D eh .. yar .. just hope that i wont have a family like this when i grow up :D heh .so .. yar .. i just successfully jumped over a hurdle in my life .. just overcome a challenge .. thus leading to .. victory from God :D yayyy . hahas .but th glory of course goes back to God :D & im really thankful that .. God has lead me through this whole painful journey of running running running then jumpingover th hurdle . someone told me that .. if you want something to happen .. you must first ..believe in it .. thats .. really true :D hahas . i believed in God . in myself . and i made it :D haha . i have a BIG BIG God :D hehes .recently i've definitely learnt .. alot .. & i wanna hao hao de serve God .wanna serve God with my heart . my soul . my life :D it isnt about how much i do .. but about my heart .. if my heart isnt right ..then whatever i do .. doesnt matter . cos God sees your heart . th number one thing in life with God is .. walking right with Him ..lotsa things have happened recently .. & sometimes .. emotions get th better of me .sometimes .. circumstances take over me .. & sometimes ..im not even focussed right .. but .. truthfully speaking ..through those times .. all i felt was .. fatigue .. & hurt .. & sorrow & ahhh all th crappy stuff .there wasnt joy .. there wasnt a meaning in life .. everything seemed wrong .friendships seemed wrong . life itself seemed wrong . i deemed myself GONE CASE . hahas . but then .. hai shi God ..again .. God called me to go back to Him .. reminding me of His ever open arms .after a whole day of bo liao-ing at home yesterday .. i went downstairs ..to a place where i thought only tears existed .but God changed that . yesterday's weather was awesome after th rain .th sky was beautiful . and everything reminded me of God & only God .i layed down everything once again & im glad to say ..im not relying on myself anymore :D not relying on .. an imperfect person .but on a perfect God :D th One that saved me & washed away my sins :Dim .. back on track .right now .. i should just .. run towards th victory that God gave 2ooo years ago .
a victory that will last forever .
not a trophy that'll rust but a crown of eternal glory .
im blessed . blessed . blessed . to have found this Love :D
IM VERY HAPPY :D
