Friday, November 30, 2007 @ 12:23 AM
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just do it :D - Nike
i had a awesome day today window shopping at bugis with kar yin & chen cong .
sherlyn , always know that i love you okay ?
i'll keep adding sugar to your lemonade & we'll wink at heaven together & throw a party together :x
i'll stand by you forever & ever & ever .
thank God for today . thank God for all the anointing .
x29 , here i comeeee !
Father ; you said if i would run to You , You would welcome me with open arms .
You said one step from me , a thousand from You .
Daddy , keep this sea clear from storms okay ? i trust in You now & forever .
through all the thunder & rain , Daddy , i'll keep holding Your hand .
& i'll pray & pray & pray ,
& i know & i know & i know that You wont leave me alone .
thank You Father , for all You've done in my life .
& for all You're going to do .
please use my life to make a difference .
LETS ROCK GYSS ;D
Thursday, November 29, 2007 @ 12:13 AM
today was fine :D not only fine . it was great :Dheres my day before photos come up :D today , as a wednesday , CA2 had caregroup :D hehes .it wasnt really caregroup ! it was more like retreat . haha .retreat at a ultra cool place ;D we went Simei ; Kar Yin's house :D at Savannah Condo .WOW . sooooooooo coool ! her house is like ..WOW . it has 3 stories .. bottom is typical apartment just bigger ..and more spectacular .. her room view is AWESOME though its just ..9th floor .. and th mirrors are cool ! :D second floor would be ..her parents room and a small space .. third floor is ..listen ! it's a SKY GARDEN ! and th rooftop :D we had so much fun up there :Dtaking pictures was a top priority today . hehes .the view was .. ohsomarvellous . it's like .. zomgzomgzomg !we played dai di .. played with JoJo ; her toy poodle .and it rained . but we went to th not Shui Mi Gong but Shi Mi Gong . hees .basically it's a small minimized waterfall with lotsa rocks and stuff .pictures will be shown in awhile :D we had so much fun ! her pool ROCKS .that was all downstairs of course .. me & kar yin had fun in th rain ;Dyicong & zyann like qian jin xiao jie .. hehe . umbrella :x haha .they take picture also look like qian jin xiao jie :x hees . okiies ..i really had lotsa fun today ! & it was very fruitful .i feel really refreshed and relaxed but very tired :xi really really really thank God for today . it was a beautiful ..awesome day :Dhehe . and YiCong's new shampoo has a nice smell :Di'll show you guys 'bout my day :D most are emo pics ..but i cant compare to congster :x hehes .YICONG . I LOVE YOUR SHAMPOO . HAHAS . Clear ;D
Tuesday, November 27, 2007 @ 10:43 PM
todays shepherding was fun :D thanks zyann .
@ 4:53 PM
happy birthday daniel :D central loves you .
@ 3:42 PM
this is the first photo ever posted on my blog & you should know who he is :D
lets celebrate halloween :D
th african "woman" and bernard :D guess who's th african "woman" .
this is a traditional game :D this time , it happened in .. well .. you see it :D
this is a neat taupok . look at how well they pile up :D
this is a crappy snapshot . this is really really unglam !
thanks shingyang for uploading these pictures :D this is th first post with pictures :D i chose .. pictures that crack me up :D
@ 1:57 PM
sometimes she just wants atteition because ..she feels left out & she doesnt fit sometimes she just wants attention & care because ..she feels left out everywhere . she isnt bored . she's hurt .
@ 12:49 PM
hellos :Di just felt like blogging . hahas . looks like it's getting regular again .but i think soon .. i will not blog for a long time . haha .th lazyness in me of using com & stuff has been washed away by th power of God :D haha .anyway . i was just verbally hurt by my dad .. zz . so abit .. hurt ? hahas .have you ever heard your dad say this ; wheres my scissors ? { i apparently did not take his freaking scissors .}than he said ; if you take my scissors again i'll kill you .HE HAS FREAKING ISSUES . lol . ohwell . it's not like it's th first time he asked me to go & die or wants me dead or something . hmmm . im not pissed . just thinks he's crazy . hahas . sometimes just feel like if im not around maybe both my parents will lead better lives . i used to think it was because of me that my parents were in this state .. then someone called me stupid .. lols . that person woke me up anyway . hahas . because when i saw pictures of my parents before i was born , they seemed pretty happy . lols . how can i change th situation in my family ? how can i be salt&light in my family when they look and me as immature , bu dong shi and just a child who doesnt care or understand anything . HELLO . im more mature than you think i am . open your eyes ! ok .. maybe they think that way cos i never express my thoughts . but hey , im not a very open person ! it's 1 out of a million times i truly express my thoughts .so definitely i have to pray for God to enable me in this area .. to step out of this comfort zone .. cause i think if i keep going on like this .. silent bout everything .either i'll keep getting misunderstood and hurt and ahhhh whatever ..or i'll just regret when everything goes wrong . oh well . GOD PLEASE HELP ME :Dhmmmm . now i know why things go wrong all th time .. many things that have happened to me .. is caused by me deciding to ..shut off th realistic wake up calls from God .. i've gone through many things with ..a mind full of fantasy & stuff that happens in fairytales or drama's on teevee .o.o .. i admit i was totally naiive in the past .. because i never dared to face or speak up about what i really think .. about whats really going on in my mind .because .. i was afraid to lose what i had .. i was afraid of getting hurt .i allowed people to say things about that werent true . i allowed others to think i thought that way . even til' now im doing it ..than it just makes people think that im wrong ..im not saying everything i do & everything that goes through my mind is right .but its just .. since i dont say anything about stuff going on in my head .than people dont know .. i used to say no one understands me .. well thats because i dont let people understand me .truthfully not even my shepherd .. its not i dont want to .i wish people could understand me . but i've heard alot of people saying ..that im not a easy person to understand . and thats simply because .. i dont let them . i dont let people into my head . theres like ..this fortress shielding everything .duh , only God knows everything .. God fully understands ..& i finally see it that way .. i used to think no one understands ..but theres always One who understands :D hees .hahas .. do i come across as innocent ? hahas . that was a random question .lols . ohwell .. i've written something i never even dared to face in th past .looks like God is really moving :D hahas . ohyah ! yesterday i read through all my blog posts .. theres a BIG difference ..between yesterdays and all th past ones .. hehes .. th past ones were kinda ..me putting on a masquerade mask .. hope that doesnt happen again :Dhahas . i've woken up from my dreams & nightmares :D haha . i'm back facing ..planet earth with a heart ready for God :D hehes . i dont wish to stay in my lala land anymore .cos that lala land kinda hurts :x hahas . anyway i came across quite a interesting icon ..it says .. that only reason people hold on to memories so tight is because memories arethe only things that wont change when everything else does .. is that true ?..cos i think memories like pictures will yellow in time .. th visions arent that clear anymore .it's not totally forgotten but like .. when you think of th past .. th "video" or pictures in your mind just arent as clear as they used to be .we can keep memories .. but just dont be victimized by them .. :DGOD
ME .
CIRCUMSTANCES .
GOD
PROBLEM .
i think that these two "illustrations" will always remind me that i have a GREAT God :D
hehes . if we magnify on God . th problems will seem smaller .
yesterday someone reminded me of something that .. really encouraged me .
so long as we put God in the picture all the time .. in everything we're struggling .
everything's gonna be find .
we're living in a big big messed up Earth .
but we have a big big BIGGER God . a God that's forever with us .
even if the whole world turns it's back on us . God wont .
He promised us . & it's not gonna be a forgotten promise :D
claim God's promises :D claim it with faith . sometimes He may seem like He's not there .
but He is always there . someone once told me .. sometimes God just wants us to learn how
to really cry out to Him & desire more of Him .
you know how stars dont seem to be there in th day time .. but only appear at night .
i think all of you know that stars are ALWAYS there .
God's like that .. though sometimes we cant find Him . He's always there .
He has never never never left us .. He also gave us a angel to protect us :D
i think if we could see angels that would be cool .. hees .
oops . off track . Lol . i typed something in someone's laptop that encouraged me myself
when that person thanked me for typing it there .
lemme share this message to you guys too :D
every good and perfect gift comes from above . God loves you ! :D have a heart that seeks
after God's very own . you CAN make your Philistine Goliath tumble . Focus on your giants .
you stumble . focus on God . your giants tumble . trust in God :D cast all your anxiety on Him
for He cares :D
th key thing here is . focus on your giants - you stumble . focus on God - your giants tumble .
after reading the book ; Facing Your Giants - Max Lucado .
it really taught me ALOT . that book is REALLY REALLY good :D hahas .
th whole book is about basically . David .
David defeated Goliath & his other big giant friends .. with five stones .
at that time he was merely a shepherd boy .. kinda amazing .. :D
when shingyang returns me th book .. i'll share more .. cos i kinda forgotten th details i wanted to share :x ohyah . max lucado is a really good writer :D
i really admire him ! his books have helped me alot in my spiritual life .
though i've read only 3 . hehes . lets name th three :D
Come Thirsty . Facing Your Giants & A Cure For Common Life .
interested ? go read . hehes .
thats a long post for a short morning . im having shepherding later in th evening .
i think i blogged to da fa shi jien & also to share lotsa things :D
i hope all i've written today can encourage you in one way or another .
GOD LOVES YOU :D
wanna make a new start .
gonna start all over again .
gonna win souls for Jesus .
more for You less for th KOD .
more of You less of me .
my heart is prepared for You to use me .
not gonna live with a masquerade mask .
not gonna live in dreams and fantasy .
not gonna block off truths .
You gave me this life .
You let me come to know You .
dont wanna waste any more time .
cos time wont wait for me .
2oo7's coming to an end.
so is this slack-ey life .
You said if i dared to ask . You dared to give .
You said You wouldnt shortchange me .
so here i am .
before Your Throne .
laying everything down before You .
waiting for You .
Monday, November 26, 2007 @ 12:28 PM
err .. someone said something that just reminded me of something .i just read through th post i just posted .. & .. i think it's really me .. not th girl putting on a masquerade mask anymore .dont wanna reveal just half of me . cant hide anymore .. cant hide anything . not cant ..well i cant hide anything from God of course .i've been hiding lotsa things .. even hiding them from myself .& .. it's been tough . hope you guys will see a new me soon :Dim not who people deem i am .im always happy cos i have yi ji bang der friends .they never fail to make me laugh and smile .. even at times when im at my lowest ..but that's just th surface .. th happiness floating on th surface .deep below .. theres a lot of things i myself dont dare to face .each & everyday .. i face a million zillion kabillion thoughts i dont remember .everytime something life changing comes to my mind .it's washed away by another flood of thoughts .why is it so chaotic in my mind ? in my heart .that i cant think properly .. just dont get it sometimes ..i just posted this to show that im not who you guys deem fit to be .im not strong . im not hyper . im just a teen seeking for God .cos thats where i found joy .. real real real everlasting joy . that kinda peace that goes way way way deep .. not just on th surface .but all th way inside me .. a surge of relief always goes through me .. when that peace just makes its way through me .
@ 11:15 AM
hello .
errr . haha . almost one month have not blogged .didnt receive much tags either .. hehes ..errs . yep . just .. wanna blog out some stuff .. to feel .. better .errr .. well .. i've found my true joy .. my true love ..well actually that was found almost two years back ..but only now have i really understood barhx ..of course it's God :D err .. i've .. let go of something ..that's been holding me back for the past 5 months ..i spoke to God about it .. and .. on th 23rd ..i didnt sleep a wink .. th whole night .. i dont know why .. but i understood ..everything .. on th 24th :D that days service .. was .. ministering ..and not only that .. i had a fresh encounter with God :D hees . errr .. wanted to post something .. just for interest .though no one may read my blog .. it's still a vent for me .. hees . hmm .. i've always lived in an Ice Palace .. apparently my house..when i was younger .. th word "home" reminded me of .. warmth ..a little family celebrating a joyful christmas by th fireplace .. sharing stories ..and .. you know .. the typical american homes & families you see on teevee .but as i grew up .. i realised that .. my family wasnt like this . my house was like ..a hotel .. for us to just sleep and eat .. just like a bed&breakfast hotel .th condition we live in doesnt matter cos in th end . it all boils down to th family . not th cement walls . & right now .. i think my family is made up of ..broken souls , broken hearts , broken promises , shattered hope .everyone wants to leave . no one wants to stay . he wants to go to . who knows where . she wants to go back . since my sister's already left .. staying somewhere now .. i just dont see th point in staying on .. but it's not like i can leave .. then .. well .. for th past few years .. i just .. cant be bothered anymore how this ..family is like .. cos it's like .. better if they get a divorce anyway .. everyone would be happier .. but it's all 'cause of me none of them wanna leave .. ah drats .. right now .. right here .. only God can bring some light .. but then .. none of them believe .oh man .. God .. really .. help me out here .. :D eh .. yar .. just hope that i wont have a family like this when i grow up :D heh .so .. yar .. i just successfully jumped over a hurdle in my life .. just overcome a challenge .. thus leading to .. victory from God :D yayyy . hahas .but th glory of course goes back to God :D & im really thankful that .. God has lead me through this whole painful journey of running running running then jumpingover th hurdle . someone told me that .. if you want something to happen .. you must first ..believe in it .. thats .. really true :D hahas . i believed in God . in myself . and i made it :D haha . i have a BIG BIG God :D hehes .recently i've definitely learnt .. alot .. & i wanna hao hao de serve God .wanna serve God with my heart . my soul . my life :D it isnt about how much i do .. but about my heart .. if my heart isnt right ..then whatever i do .. doesnt matter . cos God sees your heart . th number one thing in life with God is .. walking right with Him ..lotsa things have happened recently .. & sometimes .. emotions get th better of me .sometimes .. circumstances take over me .. & sometimes ..im not even focussed right .. but .. truthfully speaking ..through those times .. all i felt was .. fatigue .. & hurt .. & sorrow & ahhh all th crappy stuff .there wasnt joy .. there wasnt a meaning in life .. everything seemed wrong .friendships seemed wrong . life itself seemed wrong . i deemed myself GONE CASE . hahas . but then .. hai shi God ..again .. God called me to go back to Him .. reminding me of His ever open arms .after a whole day of bo liao-ing at home yesterday .. i went downstairs ..to a place where i thought only tears existed .but God changed that . yesterday's weather was awesome after th rain .th sky was beautiful . and everything reminded me of God & only God .i layed down everything once again & im glad to say ..im not relying on myself anymore :D not relying on .. an imperfect person .but on a perfect God :D th One that saved me & washed away my sins :Dim .. back on track .right now .. i should just .. run towards th victory that God gave 2ooo years ago .
a victory that will last forever .
not a trophy that'll rust but a crown of eternal glory .
im blessed . blessed . blessed . to have found this Love :D
IM VERY HAPPY :D
Wednesday, November 7, 2007 @ 10:31 AM
yoyoyo ! im back :D54 days left til' end of 'o7 ! :D i would really love it if i looked back on o7 a few years down the road .and think " wow . i really changed . i made a impact . "so .. i start out by making GOALS :D i'm gonna share .. 3 :D.. ok .. here goes ;number one :D read at least 5 books :D as in not story books .. but .. books like .. Come Thirsty - Max Lucado ! thats a good one ! :Danother is one im reading now .. Facing Your Giants - Max Lucado :D ..so .. yeap .. reading books that'll help me GROW :Dintentional to grow remember ? :D yepp .. second goal is ... learning praise&worship songs ..on .. keyboard :D yepyep :D.. lastly is to be a shepherd by end november . yep . but of course first i have to be faithful with my own life .before i can take care of another person's life .yeahyeah .. so .. this is me for the next two months .i'm gonna grow . gonna change . gonna impact .central A will will will hit 25 :D & of course not only twenty five ..we will hit 52 for our cards , amen ? yca3 will also be making it's arrival soon :Dcentral A 2 will also GROW like no one's business .but first .. it alllllll starts with US :D so .. we're gonna do it :DJUST WHACK LAHHHH .ok .. so right here now .. i have some overflowing gratitude .firstly .. i would like to thank my shepherds ! firstly ... carmen :D she's my first shepherd !i think she had a pretty hard time then ? hahas .i wasnt very .. strong then .. & i didnt do much as a sheep .so .. i think .. that .. i really really really thank her lots !haha . i love her alot ! and im very very happy she started my journey :Dwithout her .. i dont think i'll be here today . i think that goes for alllll shepherds ? :Dnext would be .. Jogina :Dshe was .. really really really ti tie .. i DID backslide when i was with her ..but she didnt reject me when i came back :D in fact she was really really really sweet !and i didnt account much until when we were about to part . but she is definitely a great big part of where i am right now .she taught me lotsa things & she comforted me when i was down .she told me things i'll remember for life . she gave me memories i will never forget .i love youuuuuuuu :D ~and of course never forgetting .. ZYANNNNNN ! hees .she's a great shepherd :D caring & sweet !she never fails to let us di siao her ! haha . hello kitty lives FOREVERRRRR . haha . she's also a great friend . daniel is right ! when you treat your shepherdas your friend . you account EASIER ;D i know it :D haha .zyann .. she's super duper caring & super duper fun :Dshe's like the red man on your daily seen traffic lights .not because she always turns red .. well she does but .. not only cos of that .but cos she stops me when im doing things that .. will hinder me in my walk with God .like the red man comes on and stops you from crossing the road when cars are moving .she saves my life ! :D spiritually . yeap . i love youuuu shepherd :Dshe has made my transfer much much easier . cant forget when it was camp she wassooooo caring :Dthank God for their lives and their love and their care :D
without them .. i wouldnt be here :D i loveeeee youuuu :Dyep . and i loveeeeeeee gee oh dee :Dhehe . i shall end here . todays verse .matthew 7:7{ DONT NEED TO SAY BARHX . } hehes .
Thursday, November 1, 2007 @ 12:36 PM
HAPPY HALLOWEEN EVERYONE :D
ENJOY YOUR PUMPKINS !
TRICK OR TREAT ?
HA ! I TRICKED YOU ! LOLS .
YICONG SWEETY .
GET WELL SOON OK .
PRAYING WITH YOU ! :D
@ 10:51 AM
hello . new blogskin coming soon !
saw central new blogskin ! super nice ! :D
so .. yep ... just wanna share somethings first ..
God spoke to me during quiet time today through a most unexpected worship song :D
a song i kept in my phone just to "show-off" that i have 24o songs . hehs .
{ Lover Of My Heart } yeps .. today i had some major mum-daughter probs ..
that i cried like .. flooding River Nile but then .. i realised that that arguement was ..
not needed .. from then also realised that .. i've been doing alot of things wrong ..
to "link" abit .. i would like to share about how God blessed me in the area of studies .
i have advanced to Sec 2 Express with a failing overall ..
due to my lack of interest in studying .. i mean .. i WANT to do well in studies ..
but i just CANT stare at a text book or worksheets for more than 15min ..
who knows that feeling ?!.. it's like .. give me a crab & i would rather di siao it .
so .. yeah lor ! but to honour God with my LIFE . it's time for a 18odegrees change .
studies is part of my life . of how Jesus can shine through my life .
to qualify to talk about Jesus ! :D thats one area i pray God will enable me in :D
i have so many areas i still have to allow God to come in .
to let God take FULL control of my life .. gotta lay everything down before Him .
everything .
there are areas in my life .. which .. which i have not Let Go & Let God .
which .. i have not let God open those doors ..
but today during qt .. i totally opened up .. gave Him everything .
& prayed hard that i will GROW .
we have to be INTENTIONAL to grow !! :D
today i was freaking desperate ! desperate for Jesus :D
i "found" allllllllll my love for Him . that He really really really won my heart :D
i still remember when i just converted .. i wasn't very faith-filled .
wasnt very convicted about anything . wasn't very much in love with God :s
but God again . amazingly . changed me . LIFE TRANSFORMATION :D
He totally gave me a spiritual revival during First Frontier .
& as i think back upon the times when i just came to know Jesus .
about th spiritual level of me then .. & of me now ..
it comes to show how amazing God is .
ask my shepherd ! haha . i'm not perfect & sinless .
i struggle not to sin .. but i have not resisted to the point of shedding blood .
Jesus died for our sins :D so that we'll have salvation .
i will give my best to His Kingdom . no wait .
no my best . MY BEST & MY ALL :D theres no way i will cross the bridge of my past again .
because it's burnt .
no more looking back . no more U-Turn's to then .
i'm gonna be strong & biblical :D Word-Centered :D Heb 4:12
live the life my Creator wants me to live .
gee oh dee is good ! all th time :D
today's verse :D1 Cor 9:24-27 ;Do you not know that in a race all the runners run , but only one gets the prize ?Run in such a way as to get the prize . Everyone who competes in the games goes into strict training .They do it to get a crown that will not last ;but we do it to get a crown that will last forever .Therefore I do not run like a man running aimlessly;I do not fight like a man beating the air .No , i beat my body and make it my slave so that after i have preached to others .I myself will not be disqualified for the prize .yours sincerely .
&{dawn :D
