HELLO ! hees .today had METAMORPHOSIS&EXTENDED PM ! ohman ! you know how absolutely GREAT it was ?!haha . God really spoke to me in many areas !in th area of my quiet time&spending time with God(:God's like .. a new toy when you first received Him ..but now .. maybe .. is He still as interesting&exciting ?hmmmmmm . really pondered about it .. &well .. i believe that ..well .. its your perspective of God .. its your heart(: to me .. God is forever interesting&exciting !day by day , seek to meet Him&you'll find you know something MORE about Him(:what Gideon [ i think ] taught .. before you received Jesus .. you lead a normal lifeafter you received Jesus , you're leading a EXCEPTIONAL life . amen !BUT after you've stayed longer&like .. not so new believer ler .. th life you're leading seems like again , a normal life&th life th world gives seems exceptionalbut ! if you meet God every single day , everyday will be exceptional .imagine life without God .. everyone needs a purpose in life .&JESUS confirms that purpose ..God also spoke to me ... realllllllyyyy spoke to me , in this other area .ok .. i shant reveal it here .. muhahahaha ..teehees . during prophesy time .. pastor shirley said .. something that .. i believe was God's calling for me .she said .. there might be some things .. maybe certain patterns in your lives ..that might seem harmless at first .. well .. it really made me think !its like , th HolySpirit was like .. eh suwanie , patterns .. why is this pattern continuosly repeating itself in your life ? what is it that you arent laying down before God .. what is it about this area of your life that God hasnt changed ?...so .. well .. i knelt down during worship .. &yes .. i told God something that took me lotsa lotsa lotsa faith .. cos if it didnt happen i would have to kneel there forever .. haha . i told God ..God . until i meet You today , im not standing up , God , until i lay this area of my life before You today , until i fully experience You&until i KNOW that , that .. this burden , this trouble , this hindrance is not fully surrendered to You , im NOT STANDING UPPPPPP ! &guess what .. i stood up ! haha . duh .. okok .. haha .. i cried real bad .. yes i did .but God never leaves us ! ' Never will i leave you , Never will i forsake you ' thats God's promise !this proves what ?.. I MET GOD ! o.o ! O.O ! yeah ! & what else does it prove ?I SURRENDERED !.. this area of my life .. which was th reason to my tears .. [ mostly ]has been th door that has been locked . God is a gentle God .. He wont barge in if we dont allow Him to come in&change us ..He isnt forceful . He can be strict ! yes He can .. but He is patient .i've let God change me in many areas of my life ..in my temper ! in my attitude ! in th way i speak ! in maturity ! in love for others !He has changed me in ways i never thought i would change .but i just NEVER let Him in to this area , this very area , of my lifewasnt it just dumb ? God knows th direction ! i was just .. getting myself lost .sometimes .. do you find yourself shunning away things that you dont wanna think about ?like , maybe , you're feeling troubled&burdened in your heart .but you just , put on a happy front&throw away all th thoughts&like ..shoo th thoughts away ? welllllll .. know th right time&right place to think about these thoughts .figure them out&lay them before God ..or maybe at times .. you find your heart .. like , not at its best .like .. many thoughts hindrancing you .. and its like .. th thoughts are overflowing .they're like .. so loud !&sooo messy ! &you know you're screwed .so you just , push it away . well , know that when its like this .. quiet down your heart&slowly think through .take time .. to know whats th problem in your life .. its definitely easier said than done&i can fully identify it :Dbut God's with you .. God'll help you .. to be able to really listen to God .. to experience Him to th fullest .your heart needs to be silent&open to God ..God speaks in th stillness of your heart ..how , tell me how , can you hear God if your heart is just screaming things at you ?just spamming you with so many things you cant even hear it properly .its like everyone's shouting at you&someone silently speaks to you ..what are you supposed to hear ? only Jesus can give you peace .. not just peace th world gives ..but peace in your hearts ! im struggling in th area of trust .. no doubt .ask God for reliance(: humility(: trust(:without trust .. nothing'll work ..today i was supposed to share testimony about GYSS ..but ohwell .. no chance to .. hees ! but though me&yicong really prepared&worked hard only to in th end be very disappointed at not being able to share .we know God's testing us .. what would our reactions be ? if it had been th old me , i would deifinitely have been either very very upset&emo or !very pissed . LOL .but guess what .. you know what ?! i said something i myself was amazed at ." dont worry ! we're gonna share a even more IMPACTING testimony when GYSS grows !"GUANGYANG WILL BE ON STAGE IN DECEMBER CAMPPPPP ! jiayou jiayou jiayou :Dsoo . hmm . i've spent like .. almost an hour on this post .editing this is gonna take me some time .. hahaha ! its ok :Dits great to share about God ! :D hmmm .yep .. no doubt i cried very badly .. &i know why .. sorta .. haha .gathering my thoughts(: hmmms . all in all lahh .. God will surely help us overcome any probs we have in our lives !it all depends on whether we're willing to let Him come in&change us !why cling on to things that arent everlasting ? God knows best !&He only wants th best for us . He longs t listen to us when we're in need of help(:&His heavenly MSN is always screened ONLINE :D you can tell Him anything&everything ! He listens to us but He also answers .you're sooo not talking to a chair :D He's ALIVE ! when you're HAPPY , He'll share your joy .when you're down , He'll be th shoulder you can lean on .He'll be your listening ears , He'll be your comforter .He's a god that is forever patient , forever present , forever faithful .He will never condemn us . in th bible , it says ..He rebukes cos He loves us :D I LOVE JESUS !
as i stand in th darkness .
i know im not alone .
i know You're with me .
give me strength to grow .
i dont wanna just run this race fast&meaninglessly.
i wanna run this race fast&long , purposeful&fruitful .
im running , running running .
til' th day i see You face to face .
&never will i have to imagine again , how it'll be like .
&never will i have to imagine again how You look like .
cos i've seen th lover of my heart .
&im just running running running .
til' th day i hear You say .
well done , my good&faithful servant .
God , im running running running this race .
&i know You're with me .
&i know You'll overcome all with me .
ohGod im running just for You .
God i know once i see You .. i'll burst ..
yes God , my love for You will burst&i'll be waiting for that day Lord .
years down th road Lord , i see myself ....................................................
