hey !
lols . qiyin's gonna be scared of coming to my house .
haha . she's my chair :D im currently sitting on her :D
haha . okok . i love her too much lurhs :D
hawhaw . 635766 ask her slap me .
rawr ! if i ever see him he's gonne get slapped :D
hawhaw . hmms . keep blogging today rights ? just that have alot of thought&stuff .
and i will blog it all :D hawhaw . if you're wondering about who .
you can ask me :D
hawhaw . but its seriously painful to gg through this kinda test .
sighs .
hope can overcome this barhs . haha
its a big hindrance :D but .. ohwell .
can only blame myself . hawhaw .
shall pray hard that i can overcome this&i believe with faith .
im able to :D
hawhaw .
kkayes . here goes stuff you might not want to read :D
im really seriously troubled .
th thoughts of you just overflow my mind .
what am i supposed to do ?
you always ask me to shaw this whole thing aside .
its definitely easier said then done .
you've moved on . you're now leading ppl&doing a great job .
i've got my own leadership role in th group but with this hindrance&burden on my shoulders .
its hard to move on .
let go ..
its been about 3months .
but still .. it all seems like yesterday .
how i wish time would stop then .
i still remember how it feels like to know you always cared&to know i could rely on you .
th very first time you held my hand i feel like i could soar .
im not in th mood to write poems now .
cos all i want is to pen down all my thoughts , my burdens , my troubles .
this path is hard to walk without you .
i've not totally gotten used to you not being around any longer .
&whenever i see you , th feelings simply goes so deep i feel like everything in me is churned up .
its like there are more then a zillion butterflies fluttering around .
&then it hits me .
its no longer how it used to be .
its like this huge gigantic frog eats up all th butterflies&my hopes&dreams just are DASHED .
its like a nuclear bomb just hit Singapore .
everything is destroyed .
th wonders&th beauty .
all gone in a flash .
do you know how it feels ?
you have not only occupied my mind in th day .
my heart&my thoughts .
also my dreams .
are my tears purely&simply worthless ?
a promise is a promise . i'll quote you for that .
but it doesnt seem like that anymore .
life's unfair . but God is just .
whats this sacrifice for ?
a covenant of love which wont last eternity ?
im messed up&i screwed up .
all i want is to know you still care .
all i want is to know you're still here .
all i want is to know you still remember .
all i want is to know you're still aware of my existence .
im sorry . this is harsh . but its from this super top secret place no one has entered .
th most deepest part of my heart .
uoyevoli .
you're like this big bro .
who's always always there .
who's always always true .
who's always always reliable .
then suddenly .
one snap&you're gone .
you cared so much&i know you loved .
but i hurt you , deep .
im sorry . i didnt choose to .
but you still cared .
you still were there for me no matter what .
you still told me things you knew were good for me .
you still helped me up when i fell .
you made me smile .
you accompanied me when i was down .
though we had to go through many trials ,
you still cared .
though challenges were many .
you still stayed .
but what about now ?
a penny for your thoughts .
i treasure you alot .
wont you be th same wonderful friend that has been there ?
wont you be the one who shows me how wonderful th world can be .
wont you be the person who encouraged me when i felt like my world was crumbling in despair .
wont you be th one who pulls me up&tells me whats right no matter how harsh .
wont you be th one who's always always always there ?
