Friday, August 31, 2007 @ 7:00 PM
WHY AM I FEELING LIKE THIS ! ><
$&(%@&)#@!!@#^&*
MY THOUGHTS ARE MESSED UP LIKE THAT !
IM MESSED UP ! D:
GOD HELP ME .
GOD HELP ME .
GOD HELP ME .
GOD HELP ME .
GOD HELP ME !
@ 4:46 PM
hello :Dguess where i am ! :Dim at my gan laogong's house :Dif you dont know who is he she . see my tagboard :Dhmm . im sooo smiley today !haha . its cos when im with him her , i'm happy ! x33shmm . alot of people say i look emo !do i ? noooo . i soo dont . &im NOT emo .. i think .. hahas .ohwell . living life with God is certainly an adventure :Di find myself talking to Him almost every hour .. teehee .its great to have life with my creator ! teehees .hmmm . im still sick .. maybe God wants me to take break ?haha .. i cough til' i feel like my insides are gonna .. tear open .hahas . tomorrow got newshirt wear lerhsTHANK YOU YICONG :DDwell .. i suddenly feel like blogging emo stuffbut ... i have God .. theres no reason for emo ..i suddenly feel like crying ..but ... God's with me :D theres nothing to be sad about ..cos with God .. nothing can go wrongim relying on Him 1oo% ! (:My Saviour :D My Redeemer :D My Love . heal me ! please ? haha .ohwell . i'll stop here :D wanna know why im feeling sad ?haha . im always here to answer your questions ..sighing signing off !lovloves .when im standing in th dark , i still believe .someone's watching over me ..My Lord , My Saviour . theres no one like you .i wont give up .. i wont breakdown ..i love You ..i'll be strong .. even if it all goes wrong .my faith is firm in You .
Thursday, August 30, 2007 @ 11:16 AM
hello :Din com lab again .hahas . hmm .i barely feel like staying in school now .i cant stop tearing&sneezing&coughing .im having this ultra-weird fever .sighs . God , wont you heal me ?i wanna be able to praise You&listen to Your Word this saturday .ohLord . im not feeling very well ! heal me ! i have faith in You .&i dont want cancer . hahas .okays .today .. now its after recess .before recess had English ;it was .. my sleeping time ?! hahas . umm . we had to do an essay .but i wasnt well enough to do one .so i didnt listen&slept .Mrs Teo knew i was illMathMrChong wasnt here !everyone was excited !we did some encouragement cards for th sec4's cos their 'o' were around th corner after doing that .. i did my quiet time .. it was God's calling hahas .so .. after that .. just sit one a table behind&watched th class .th class looked so peaceful despite all th loud music&wrestling .hahas .it was like we really were one ..i thank God for giving me this wonderful class !1e1 ! rock onman .. i just realised i still have so many more years to go ..im only sec one ..i have to go through my streaming next year .. than my 'o' levels .studying hard only striving to get into JC .than take my 'a' levels & what will be after that ?well . my current goal is just getting in Junoir College&it seems hard ! but with God .. i can do it :Ddo your best&God will do th rest :Dif your heart is involved , your hand will be too !JIAYOU ! hees .shall blog if i have time .ohyes !IM GROWING WELL&WALKING RIGHT WITH GOD !im spiritually refreshed&renewed ! :D ily ;i know with Your Promises .Your Support .with You in my life .nothing can go wrong&even if things do go wrong .You'll make them right again .central A ! 25 will definitely come to pass .{ one life & soon it will pass . only whats done for Christ will last .
Wednesday, August 29, 2007 @ 9:03 PM
hello ! :D im at th ccteehees . with lihern&qiyin enjoy times spent with them :Dhmmms . still sick .. haha . have t go home soon .tomorrow have school plus im real sick .. teehees .hmms . my friendster got some problems . hees .so anyway . today wasnt much fun lurhs .swimming just made my condition get worse ..like im not sick enough .. wonderful ~ so anyway . next week is CENTRAL CHALETim SO excited . but thing is . i really wanna celebrate central hitting 2oo&ppl ! although we only have 3 DAYS left .we can do it .GOD IS WITH US !He has overcome th world2oo is peanutslets pray&have faith ! deeds too ! :Dwe can do this ! cos God is great ohyah ! this reminds me .there was this woman .. who shared about her church at bishan mrt station .she was inviting eunice down .. then i decided to go over&listen .then i told her we were already christians serving in a church .she ask us what church we're from .i told her hope church . she ask what bible we use .i said NIV version .first thing she said that made me lose control .she said NIV was corrupted version .so nevermind .. she was insulting God's word .. in a weird way [ due to she's a christian ]then she said .. that she had been misled by a church for over 1o years .that her ex-church taught tongues&stuff&she said that kinda church was charismatic & that it would destruct our souls .she was indirectly suan-ing th House Of God !whatsmore .she said th doctrine in Hope is not pure .. due to adultrated Word .i was so pissed i felt like giving her a tongue-lashing .then i thought .she's also God's child i guess&God wants us to have self-control .so i just stood there&baii pose . haha .but whatever she said was RIDICULOUS .maybe she's from that weird satanic church . hawhaw .i still remember th joke me&Jogina made about it .haha . so anyway . know that God's Word is pure :Di'm gonna be biblical ! wee ~must use th right mindset :DSEE YARHS !love yarhs :Dcos i know You're real .cos i know You're always with me .cos i know Your Love .cos i know You care .my heart is Yours forever .
@ 1:24 PM
hello ! :Din com lab now .feeling very sick ..cos i sorta am ..haha . my head is spinning ~have no idea how im typing .my eyes are like . super painful ! rawrs . keep tearing .&my throat is super .... sore . haha .plus my cough hasnt gotten better ,instead , it has gone a turn for th worst .great ! :D&my nose is BLOCKED . zz .i am soooo darn sick .lucky for me , friday is my day off .im going back to sembawang primary for teachers day :Dthough i LOVE gyss teachers .i absolutely LOVE sembawang teachers more .haha . maybe its cos of what they have given me :Dcredits to them because they impacted me&taught me things applicable to my life .especially MrTan ! haha . sps teachers RULEhees . *coughs*hahs . even my honeybunny wants me t see a doctor .hahas . kill me ! arghs . okok .i've asked God for strength cos i still have outreach later :xwhatsmore . i dont like this feeling ..im feeling all giddy&tired.. feel like just fainting .Lord . Give Me Strength :DDman .. im posting from school com lab was reading through my sermon book in class today .learnt many things over again .hmmmm . now i constantly talk to God cos i KNOW He's always with me :Deven though i might not feel His presence .His presence is still abundant .yesterday something bad happened but with God :D i got over it .hees . though i did cry&stuffs but .. thank God .. He consoled me .. :Dyay ! God is good :DDDDD !so . im logging off . see yarhs .
i just wanna die in your arms , here tonight .;reminiscences . whats it about ?th pain or th sweetness .remember th happy times&have a break through .take th sad past as challenges .'cos all i need is You .
Monday, August 27, 2007 @ 10:55 PM
hello ! :DD im posting quite late today ..teehees . gonna sleep at about twelve .surely gonna get nagged at but its alright :Dhmms .well .. today had fasting&&i ate subway ..oops . forgot there was fasting for a moment but i repented :Dtoday also had shephering ..it was a 2point teaching which was five six pages long .how cool rights ? haha .but it was a fruitful teaching too ! i learnt alot and took one more step closer to God :Dit was on ' Forsaking Our Fears ' ..i had that teaching before ..it was just when i came back to church during march or april ..i remember th ... part where Pastor Jeff took th two-rider bic .. hawhaw .okays .. thats about it .. th teaching .. was really ... tiring to write !haha . zyann's anointing .. haha . LOL .hmmm .we CAN be fearless .. with God in our lives :Dlet Jesus take th front seat&&give Him full control .only He knows th direction .. only He knows th way .only with Him involved&in complete control of our lives can we be at peace .&th peace Jesus gives us is NOT what th world gives us .th world provides us with serenity&quietness . but what Jesus can give us is inner peace .nothing can replace th peace within .you know rights , in a tornado .th very centre of th tornado .. its called th "EYE"&that part is th most peaceful&quiet place of all .&its in th midst of all that disaster&stuffs !in th midst of ALL our troubles .Jesus is still with us&can give us true peace .&! answering God's calling ..God's calling can be through our leaders .obey&submit to your leaders ! God appointed you&your leaders confirm it !NEVER be insecure of YOUR leadership :DGod never makes mistakes .i think i shall stop here .. th anointing is flowing ~ later i tomorrow also haven type finish .so .. all in all .in all boils down to obedience;reliance&trust .know that whatever you do , wherever you go .Jesus is with you ! anyone can receive His peace if you just allow it :DPsalm 23:4 .
have full trust in th Lord our God :DHe will protect His Children !BE CHILDLIKE NOT CHILDISH !!!! x33s as long as i shall live i will testify to love .all i need is you .&i'll sing with all my heart .You're my first love ; my first joy .what would i do without You .
Sunday, August 26, 2007 @ 11:38 AM
| You Are An ENFP |
The Inspirer
You love being around people, and you are deeply committed to your friends.
You are also unconventional, irreverent, and unimpressed by authority and rules.
Incredibly perceptive, you can usually sense if someone has hidden motives.
You use lots of colorful language and expressions. You're quite the storyteller!
In love, you are quite the charmer. And you are definitely willing to risk your heart.
You often don't follow through with your flirting or professed feelings. And you do break a lot of hearts.
At work, you are driven but not a workaholic. You just always seem to enjoy what you do.
You would make an excellent entrepreneur, politician, or journalist.
How you see yourself: compassionate, unselfish, and understanding
When other people don't get you, they see you as: gushy, emotional, and unfocused |
hehes . oops . laming ! haha .
@ 10:00 AM
im back !but im back with a whole new level of spiritual maturity !yesterday's service really made me think .it was on praise&worshipdo i really seek God or seek th music ?do i sing with th same love for my awesome God when im down compared towhen im in a good mood ?when God calls . do i answer or just shut Him off ?i keep praying for God to help me&use me ..but when God answers me .do i obey ? do i follow what God wants me to be ?these are questions which really make someone think .God has answered many of my prayers .through people around me .through giving me chances to teach .God is truly using me in ways which i can impact ppl .but at times i realise i still dont obey .th key is obedience .this sentence always hits me hard .th bible repeatedly says ..th Lord is faithful&loving to those who keep His demands&commandments .soo . obedience is like . everything !if God calls you to do something & you just .. heck it . then . well .whats th point of asking God to use you in th first place ?yep .okok . ending soon .when you're falling .know theres always someone standing by you .NOT watching you fall ok there is someone watching you fall !that stupid satan . lols .umm . God ! always stands by you & helps you .He will definitely answer your prayers .you may not realise it .. but He does .cos He is real ! &once you knock on His door .He will definitely open th door .tap on God&He will move His hand .entrust your whole life unto God cos it is most worth it .&trust God with everything cos your creator knows best .as long as i shall live .i will testify to love .im singin with all my heart .cos i know all i will ever need is You .its Your love which brings me through .
Friday, August 24, 2007 @ 6:27 PM
hello .haha . no one will ever guess where i am now :Dim at CC ! haha .first time lehs ! ohno .. haha .nvm . not gonna come here often anyway .hmm . with LIHERN & PHYLLIS .phyllis DISAPPEARED ! lols .hmmm . recently abit moody .today is th second month since something happened .hmmmm . but its different .last month i was all emo shyt but today i seem to be happy just very very sick .haha . times has flown past .definitely times have also changed .&so have both of us .i've lost many ppl who mean alot to me .but also found things i've never been able to see before .i'm glad that im growing well .. just that vulgar spouts out by accident at times .haha . have to change that lols . hmmm . i'm glad to know God's always standing by me .im veh grateful for His presence :D&also . THANK YOU MR TAN FOR TAGGING ME ! miss you muchs ! :D haha .visiting SPS on teachers day .. maybe have t pon school .anyway i didnt know so many ppl read my blog . wow .haha . im amazed :Dsoooo . anyway . teachers day in guangyang is BORING .got some shitty fire drill&stuff :x hope no gyss teachers read my blog .LOL . so .. well . today has been .. fine . on th flip side .my heart is abit sour . lols .but ... ahhh to hell with it . haha .oops :x just dont feel like dealing with any thing like this anymore .its been too much so .. lastly .i wanna thank God .for th friends He has given me .for th answered prayers .for basically . everything hope to grow so much more in Him :D muchloves :Di didnt mean to fall in love with you .but your smiles&your eyes .im trying to get over it .i now whats right&i know whats trust .i've grown up .
Thursday, August 23, 2007 @ 10:52 PM
hey .posting quite late .today hasnt been a good day at all .but i guess know with God .everything's gonna be alright .feeling veh sick . very very super bad coughmum's all .. arghs .im all .. arghs .ok fine . shant be emo kid for once .IM IN LOVE WITH TH SONG GHOST OF YOU&ME !& also MIRROR MIRROR real nice :D listen if you have time .sorta emo stuff but .. meaningful :DBehind these hazel eyes is also nice ! cos it fits me quite perfectly lols .umm . im not in much of a mood to blog .i pretty much just feel like breaking down or something .im all drained&pissed&hurt .aihs . forget it .
i didnt mean to fall in love with you ;
dry thy eyes & testify ; its now or never .
Wednesday, August 22, 2007 @ 8:43 PM
1. Do you still have pictures of you &
your ex?
ehhh . "ex" lol .
3. Do you swear often?
nopes . guaii kia :D
4. Are you crushing?
nopes :D Jesus is my love .
5. When was the last time you cried?
two days ago .. i guess .
6. Do you use lyrics to express how
you feel?
if you say so ... lol .
7. Are you ashamed of your past?
some parts . yes .
8. Where does your grandma live?
one in thailand one in singapore .
9. Anyone close to you ever died?
my dear Jesus :D but HE ROSE AGAIN ~
10. Who's always there for you ?
Jesus ~ AND of course ZYANN , QIYIN , YICONG .
11. What is your favorite TV show?
umm . quite alot . lols . reality kind barhs .
12. What was the last song you
downloaded?
i do not download songs . haha .
13. Who was the last person you yelled
at?
WONG CHUNG AN .
14. What was the last compliment you
recieved?
God still cares :DDD&alot more . ohyarh !
tks clarisse for reminding me to bring tingxie !
15. Do you have a laptop?
my papa's norhs . I SPOILED TH FAN ! lol .
16. Are you going on vacation in the
summer?
ummm . winter is coming .. ching ching ching . lol . dont think so .
17. Do you ride roller coasters?
is th inverter counted ? lol .
18. When was the last time you saw
your best friend?
HE'S RIGHT NEXT TO ME NOW ! ily; Jesus ! :DDD
19. What's your full name?
ummm . i forgot . nah . jokin . st ~~ :D
20. Have you ever thought about
turning gay/lesbian?
yes .. but ITS UNBIBLICAL ~
21. Do you have good memories with old
friends?
very good unforgettable memories .
22. Have you ever been to Hollywood?
ummm . i wish . lol .
23. Are you wearing a necklace?
umm . nope .
24. What jewelry can you not live
without?
jewellary is materialistic . but MY RING has sentimental value ! :D
25. Would you date the person who
posted this?
i doubt any guy would bother to do this&i dont date girls :D
26. Are you happy right now?
of course . i have Jesus in my life :D
27. Do you regret anything that you
have done?
yes . definitely .
28. What are you doing tonight?
study&chat .
29. Do you trust people?
umm . yeah .
30. If you were someone else, would
you be friends with you?
guess so .
31. What is something you say when
you're mad?
you stupid idiot ......... RAWR !
32. What family member do you look
like?
my mama .
33. What friend will be coming over to
your house next?
qiyin barhs ?
34. Have you ever cried from being so
mad?
yeps .
35. Who is number 1 on your top
friends?
JESUS .
36. Why is this person first?
HE ROCKS .
37. Do you like messages or comments
better?
messages .
38. What is your favorite beverage?
ummm . anything other than plain water&blue ice&chinese tea&sprite .
39. Have you ever seen your best
friends cry?
yes&it hurts to see them cry . it hurts alot .
40. What kind of vitamins did you take
as a kid?
a b c d e f g h i j k l m o p q r s t u v w x y z .
41. What is the last thing you ate?
NERD ROPES !
42. Did you get any compliments today?
yep . thanks JOYCE . SHERLS . CLARISSE . NICOLETTE . JIEYUN . LAIYEE . MR HAFIZ . BRANDONKANG . YICONG . ZYANN .
43. What are you going to do after
this?
friendster ? lol .
44. Are most of your friends guys or
girls?
ummm . same same lorhs . haha .
45. Are you friends with your
neighbors?
umm . he's a kid of about 3 and super adorable :D
46. What do you do before you sleep?
thank God for th day&pray :D
47. Where have you lived throughout
your life?
holdin Jesus' hands :D thailand . marine parade . canberra road . admiralty drive .
48. Last piercing you got?
double high pierce about 2 weeks ago ?
49. When was the last time you drove
more than 30 minutes?
i cant drive :D
gimme license !
50. Do you get distracted easily ?
yep . short attention span too . lol .
YES IM LAME ! HAWHAW .
baby one shot&you're gone .
@ 5:56 PM
darlinggREMINISCENCEof my onceSweetLove .
hello ! suwanie is BACK !
haha . think im getting boring ?
time to CHANGE BLOGSKIN .
lols .
well . im steppin out of my comfort zone&goin to a whole new level .
BANKAI ~ :DD umm .
nono . off-track-ster :D
umm . im goin to a whole new level with God .
its time t move on :D im changin . &for th better .
my life has been this reckless roller coaster ride since .. 4 years ago ?
&its enjoyable but short-lived .
whats th point ? its like .
time t live life to its fullest ! &i can only do that with WHO ?
DUH ! JESUS ~ yay ~ :D
so well .. must have th will barhs ..
self-control is something very important !!
i've been serving God because .. well .
one . th ppl there are .. well . just great ! x33s
two . spend time elsewhere other than home . [ which is like , wrong ]
three . see GYSS visions fulfilled .
but its getting meaningless .
i wanna serve God for th right reasons .
seek God with th right motives .
like i said .
in th end . its th heart that counts cos God looks at our hearts .
get this !~
serve God cos of God
only with Him can you lead life t th fullest .
life with God is WONDERFUL .
so far .
i've experienced His blessings .
His Amazing Grace .
His LOVE !~
&MANY OTHERS !
my God is a faithful God . :D
He has always been there to hear me out .
cant believe i've broken His heart so many times yet He still forgives if i just ask .
its soooooo time to commit WHOLEHEARTEDLY to Him :D
SAY GOOOOOOOFFFDDDBYE !~ lols .
MUCHLOVES x33s
baby one shot&you're gone .
Tuesday, August 21, 2007 @ 11:38 AM
something just hit me .he's a caregroup leader .im not even a shepherd .&&like . ok , maybe different situations .but ! times have changed .he's moved on .ok . i admit im childish ok ! immature crap !i admit i keep thinkin' he's like . { im sorry } out to fool me .to crown me #1 idiot . like . why cant i trust him ? promises promises promises . sighs .maybe this is just it .im holdin on to this so tightly i just .sort of "forgot" about God&His promises .gurl . its time to turn back to God .new-believers .. this reminds me of something th pastor's always say .just take one step to God&God will run a thousand steps to you !~i have faith&i have convictions&i have experienced .but does it make a difference if my heart isnt with God ?if im not wholeheartedly serving God&desiring to serve His people ?though im th second youngest in my group .that doesnt mean God wont use me .in th end ; its th heart that matters .God looks at our heart .i may have a daily prayer life .i may look to God .but .. well . my heart just isnt with God .th bible says . where your treasure is , there your heart will be .{ remember ! not only christians can read th bible ! cos th bible teaches us LIFE PRINCIPLE }so maybe my treasure is not in heaven .well JUST YET it isnt .when God created me , he created my spouse . why am i so ......... hung up on this ?if we're really meant to be than God will definitely bless .if not God definitely has something better .im saying all this not just from my mind but from my heart .God blessed me to be a blessing .readers ! remember all i've said :Dalthough it isnt very clear .hahs .all i know is this .God is a faithful God .He might be strict at times because He wants us to PASS HIS TEST'S .&He cant just be leniant because than we wont fully grow through that test !so He has to be strict .but ! He is also PATIENT .He will wait for us .He has sacrificed so much everything for us .why cant we do th same .can you believe it ?YOUR CREATOR GAVE IT ALL FOR YOU .its through His Grace that we have been saved .be thankful :D be humble :Dnever ever be complacent .believers ; take every test as a challenge&a stepping stone to draw nearer to God .He will reveal His plan to you bit by bit .Your Creator knows best . just like .... New Zealand knows Ice Cream :DGod knows your limits . He will not tempt you beyond what you can bear .we have limits but God doesnt ! so TRUST in Him&rely fully on Him .we cant let our friends rely fully on us but God can & WANTS .ohman . i can never finish talking at this rate . haha .ummm.lastly barhs .know that whatever God does .He has your BEST INTERESTS at heart .you may not experience Him personally .you may not yet have FULL FAITH&wholeheartedly love Him yet .but remember .keep holdin' on .cos with faith as small as a mustard seed .you can move th mountains .THE CREATOR OF THE UNIVERSE LOVES ME !
@ 11:03 AM
in com lab now .. :DD
cant blog at home cos blogger dont like my com .
so SIIAN !
darns ! teehees . anyway .
my blog is sorta siian .. its like .
half-dead . hawhaw !
SAVE TH BLOG !
rawrs . heees .
anyways . IM HAVING THIS ..
super annoying . super painful . super bad . super horrible .
cough .
its like . i keep coughin [ duh ] but its cough til' veh hard .
then always got blood .
rawrs . waste my blood ! hahs .
hmm . havent gotten sick in a long time .
suddenly feel like getting really sick&like .. haiis .
cannot cannot :D have to continue goin on ! cos I GOT JESUS !
zzz . faith-filled ! :DDDDDDDDD
you will receive what you expect . God is GREATER than ALL your feelings&thoughts .
GOD IS A RICH GOD&He is definitely generous when things are needed :D
sooooo ! HEAL ME !!!! cos this cough hurts loads . literally .
hawhaw .
alriights ! this sunday going SENTOSA ! weeeee ~
GONNA GO QIAO ZHA MY MUM AT CANDY EMPIRE !~~
hees . shall go become chao da [ burnt ]
i'll come back lookin like this . friggin lobster . lols .
its ok :D God still loves me :D muhahas .
MUCHLOVES DEARIES !~ x33s
darling
you've crowned me #1 idiot .
life definitely has its ups&downs .
but knowing you were there just made the fear go away .
you used to just sit with me silently when i was down .
when you knew thoughts were running through my mind .
you used to comfort me with your words .
letting me know someone would always hear me out .
but thats just something which wasnt meant to be .
was it .
th only reason i hold on so tightly t those memories .
because i know .
if everything in this world fades away .
and everything goes wrong .
memories .
still .
exist .
though they might be reality .
i know they're still part of what i once had .
&im content knowing i ever tasted a budding romance .
baby all i want is for you to know .
that promises are not meant to be broken .
friends are not meant to be strangers .
sweetheart .
theres nothig like love .
darlingg
whoever said im emotionally stable ?
Sunday, August 12, 2007 @ 7:33 PM
@ 6:15 PM
IF YOU'VE FOUND SOMEONE NEW .
I'LL SUPPORT YOU ALL THE WAY .
THERES STILL SO MUCH YOU DONT KNOW .
HOW AM I TO LET YOU UNDERSTAND ?
uoyevoli ; i guess .
@ 4:49 PM
hey !
lols . qiyin's gonna be scared of coming to my house .
haha . she's my chair :D im currently sitting on her :D
haha . okok . i love her too much lurhs :D
hawhaw . 635766 ask her slap me .
rawr ! if i ever see him he's gonne get slapped :D
hawhaw . hmms . keep blogging today rights ? just that have alot of thought&stuff .
and i will blog it all :D hawhaw . if you're wondering about who .
you can ask me :D
hawhaw . but its seriously painful to gg through this kinda test .
sighs .
hope can overcome this barhs . haha
its a big hindrance :D but .. ohwell .
can only blame myself . hawhaw .
shall pray hard that i can overcome this&i believe with faith .
im able to :D
hawhaw .
kkayes . here goes stuff you might not want to read :D
im really seriously troubled .
th thoughts of you just overflow my mind .
what am i supposed to do ?
you always ask me to shaw this whole thing aside .
its definitely easier said then done .
you've moved on . you're now leading ppl&doing a great job .
i've got my own leadership role in th group but with this hindrance&burden on my shoulders .
its hard to move on .
let go ..
its been about 3months .
but still .. it all seems like yesterday .
how i wish time would stop then .
i still remember how it feels like to know you always cared&to know i could rely on you .
th very first time you held my hand i feel like i could soar .
im not in th mood to write poems now .
cos all i want is to pen down all my thoughts , my burdens , my troubles .
this path is hard to walk without you .
i've not totally gotten used to you not being around any longer .
&whenever i see you , th feelings simply goes so deep i feel like everything in me is churned up .
its like there are more then a zillion butterflies fluttering around .
&then it hits me .
its no longer how it used to be .
its like this huge gigantic frog eats up all th butterflies&my hopes&dreams just are DASHED .
its like a nuclear bomb just hit Singapore .
everything is destroyed .
th wonders&th beauty .
all gone in a flash .
do you know how it feels ?
you have not only occupied my mind in th day .
my heart&my thoughts .
also my dreams .
are my tears purely&simply worthless ?
a promise is a promise . i'll quote you for that .
but it doesnt seem like that anymore .
life's unfair . but God is just .
whats this sacrifice for ?
a covenant of love which wont last eternity ?
im messed up&i screwed up .
all i want is to know you still care .
all i want is to know you're still here .
all i want is to know you still remember .
all i want is to know you're still aware of my existence .
im sorry . this is harsh . but its from this super top secret place no one has entered .
th most deepest part of my heart .
uoyevoli .
you're like this big bro .
who's always always there .
who's always always true .
who's always always reliable .
then suddenly .
one snap&you're gone .
you cared so much&i know you loved .
but i hurt you , deep .
im sorry . i didnt choose to .
but you still cared .
you still were there for me no matter what .
you still told me things you knew were good for me .
you still helped me up when i fell .
you made me smile .
you accompanied me when i was down .
though we had to go through many trials ,
you still cared .
though challenges were many .
you still stayed .
but what about now ?
a penny for your thoughts .
i treasure you alot .
wont you be th same wonderful friend that has been there ?
wont you be the one who shows me how wonderful th world can be .
wont you be the person who encouraged me when i felt like my world was crumbling in despair .
wont you be th one who pulls me up&tells me whats right no matter how harsh .
wont you be th one who's always always always there ?
@ 2:12 PM
IM SORRY BUT IM JUST AT A LOST ;
YOU'VE SIMPLY WALKED OUT&LEFT ME .
WE'VE ALL UNDENIABLY CHANGED .
BUT DOES TH MEMORIES MEAN NOTHING AT ALL TO YOU .
DOES IT BRING YOU JOY TO SEE ME FALLING DOWN A BOTTOMLESS PIT .
@ 1:40 PM
heyhey hello !
im back :DD again .
yesterday service was fun .
it also helped me understand&change .
&th worships songs were also nice.
ASSUREDLY YOURS ! muhaha .
hmmm . yesterday had duty [ holycom ] then had coreteam meet .
then .. after service had central meet .
me&yicong shared testimonial about GYSS !
it was nerve-wrecking but all in all a great experience .
i was super duper nervous .
haha . so yep . yesterday was a fruitful day .
haha . today went out for lunch with qiyin then went arcade .
now back at home doing blogging norhs . haha .
kkaes . seeyah guys ! :DD
you're th first to make me fall so deep .
you're th first to make me trust to much .
you're th first to make me tear so easily .
its hard to believe that all this means so little to you .
am i wrong to say that you've already forgotten my existence .
you're irreplaceble .
th warmth of your care&th memories i had with you .
no one can ever make me feel that way .
here i am ; at th crossroads once again .
im seriously confused .
i dont even know if you're real anymore .
no words can express th way i feel now .
nothing on this earth can explain how i feel about you nor how much pain im going through .
we're so close yet so far .
sometimes i just wish i listened to those who were wiser .
drastic changes proved how much we've matured&grown .
but it seems like im still living in th memories .
whats it like to you right now .
during that time .
though it flashed past in a blink of an eye .
whats it like to you ? to think about it now .
because everytime i think about it .
tears carrying th deepest&innermost thoughts&feelings flow freely like a stream .
im glad i had you by my side once .
til' i find my tears in th ocean .
theres a past i'll always remember .
cos ; im sorry . its unforgettable .
call me irresponsible . call me unreliable .
but im undeniably unable to be you .
treated you like a closest friend .
but now this friendship so wonderful .
seems to have been washed away like ;
th sand on th beaches .
in th blink of an eye . its all gone .
whats promises to you ?
i was never biased nor did i favour .
im sorry i hurt you . im sorry for all i did .
but in the end . you're gone too .
whats it like to be you ?
its wonderful to be able to go throught th
ups&downs of life with someone who truly cares .
someone who is really there when you need him .
but th thing is .
when that someone's gone .
whats left is th empty words&th shattered friendship .
wishes upon a star dont come true .
cos stars are meteors .
we're lookin at th same sky .
th same moon .
th same stars .
th same clouds .
but we're not in th same world .
whats it like to be you ?
Friday, August 10, 2007 @ 6:30 PM
1. The phone rings, who do you want it
to be?
#JESUS:D
2. When shopping at the grocery store,
do you return your cart?
#please ! who wont ? haha .
3. If you had to kiss the last person
you kissed again, would you?
#NO !
4. Do you take compliments well?
#erm . guess so . muhahas .
5. Do you play Sudoku? #NO !
6. If abandoned alone in the
wilderness would you survive?
#guess not ? haha .
7. If your house were on fire, what
would be the first thing you would
save?
#erm . THE HEARTS .
8. Who was the last person you slept
in the bed with?
#qiyin ! haha .
9. Who do you text the most?
#tankarho .
10. Favorite childrens book?
#CINDERELLA .
11. Eye color?
#brown .
12. How tall are you?
#163 ! muhahas .
13. If you could do it over again,
start from scratch, would you?
#MY LIFE !
15. When was the last time you were at
Botanic Garden?
#P5 ! muhahas .
16. Favorite ex..?
#ehs . private&confidential .
17. Where was the furthest place you
traveled?
#HEAVEN ! i came from there .
18. Do you like mustard?
#sourish nehs . but not bad . teehees .
19. Do you prefer to sleep or eat?
#SHUI JIIAO !
21. Do you miss anyone?
#duh of course . muhahas .
22. Can you do splits?
#splitting pants . NO . splits . yes .
23. What movie do you want to see
right now?
#PERFECT STRANGER .
24. What did you do for New Years Eve?
#ton with some friends&wished someone happynewyear at 12am .ZAIZAI .
25. Do you think The Grudge was crappy?
#didnt want .
26. Do you own a camera phone?
#no . i own a black&white phone . haha .JOKIN .
27. Are you a cheerleader?
#yarh ... sobs . haha .RESPONSIBILITY HOUSE ! DONT PLAYPLAY.
28. Whats the last letter of your
middle name?
#dont have middle name narhs . wait til' im baptized kkaes ? hahaha .
29. Are you hispanic?
#no . [ hispanic ; connected with spanish-speaking countries . ]
31. Do you like care bears?
#duh . they are ohso cute . cuter then this quiz .
32. What do you buy at the Movies?
#nachos ! drink ! urmmmm . stuff !
33. Do you know how to play poker?
#sort of . teehees .
34. Do you wear your seatbelt?
#never . kill me .
35. What do you wear to sleep?
#cloth . haha .
36. Anything big ever happen in your
CITY?
# NICOLL HIGHWAY COLLAPSED ! haha .
37. Is your hair straight or curly?
#wavy . haha .
38. Is your tongue pierced?
#i would like that .
39. Do you like Liver and Onions?
#nopes . EW GROSS-OUT .
40. Do you like funny or serious
people better?
#a mix :D
41. Ever been to L.A.?
# YES ! my dad has ! haha .
42. Who is on your mind right now?
#just him & JESUS .
43.any plans 4 tonight?
#besides an appointment with th dream doctor . no .
44. Whats your fav. song at the moment?
#urm . when there was me&you .
45. Do you hate chocolate?
#if a chocoholic hates chocolate . whats a alcoholic ? ha .
46. What do you and your parents fight
about the most?
#coming home late .
47. Are you a gullible person ?
#gullible . sortof . more naiive .
48. Do you need a boyfriend/girlfriend
to be happy?
#I NEED A GIRLFRIEND. haha . nah . i just need JESUS.
49. If you could have any job what
would it be?
#pastor/teacher .
50. Are you easy to get along with?
#aint i answering you truthfully ? haha .
51. What is your favorite time of day?
#morning afternoon night . haha . night-person .
52. Are you generally a happy person?
#ehs . urm . definitely :D
thank you for your love .
thank you for your care .
sorry for being selfish .
sorry for being harsh .
i just miss you too much .
ILOVEYOUPEOPLE !
