And you will live in my memories, forever more i swear.♥

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♥HELL-OH. I think nailing jelly to the wall is easier than finding a good man!
Im out of this world, goofy and understated.
You are my sunshine, my only sunshine.
You make me happy, when skies are grey.
You'll never know how, how much i love you.
Please dont take my sunshine away.

Its just me♥

Dawn Suwanie.
Thirtieth May would be why.
Hey Monday, We The Kings, Ne-yo, Fall out boy, Nickelback, Lifehouse, Every Avenue & such, they rock!
Im melancholic, not emotional but sentimental and soft at heart.
Im very very very very insecure.
I have the sweetest friends and the wildest imagination.
I dont forget anyone easily, so you'll always be a part of me.
I am me, and i will always be.
Jellybeans and plastichearts remind me of you. ♥

Your typewriter♥

Tuesday, June 2, 2009 @ 8:38 PM

IM BRINGING HIM WITH ME TO WORDPRESS!

You can find SuperDawn at http://kidsandromance.wordpress.com :D

Relink me if theres a need, comment me there if you want to,

And last but not least, give me your suggestions if blogger or wordpress is better.

Dawn appreciates your effort! So does Drake Bell! :D

All my love, Dawn.

Sunday, May 31, 2009 @ 11:39 PM

Trauma and tragedy in the making.
Baby why'd you leave me, why'd you have to go? I was counting on forever. Now i'll never know.
It's like im looking from the distance, standing in the background. Everybody's saying he's not coming home now.
This cant be happening to me, this is just a dream. Just. A. Dream.
Well, i went for a food-tasting session at Matthews and his mom is really friendly. His food was not toxic, no worries.
Then, we left to meet Husband at DhobyGhaut. Went for some Jubeat arcade session then left with Mingquan to Sembawang.
Went for another arcade session and then left for dinner. Then walked to 354D's playground and played daidi.
And to my surprise, i won four times. Thrice in a row, then came in second, then won again. Thats a first, really.
Then i walked home listening to some retard throwing mean comments at his friend whilst playing GuitarHero.
I miss playing GuitarHero. ): Come to think of it, i miss alot of things. I miss playing RockFever too. D:
But i dont like RF5, and i cant find RF4. ]: I miss chilling with people. D: I miss heart to heart talks.
I miss being loved. ): I miss watching cartoons for the whole day. I miss having lunch with my family. ):
I miss my N70 ME. D: I miss my Motorola Vwhatever. I miss chilling with the ahbengs in Sembawang. ):
I miss A.
Omg. My life seems so depressing. No no no, its not depressing. [: Its just changing. Too much for me to handle.
Oh well. Anyway, Husband just posted something super sweet on her blog. [: Thank you, Husband. :D
Hm. Thinking alot right now.. Tell me what to do when you feel like dying. At 15. My gosh, im so negative.
Okay. Im happy. I really truly am. (:

No, it really doesnt matter anyway.

My dream has turned in cold, harsh reality.

Cold. Harsh. Reality.

@ 12:27 PM

I dont like my previous post. Its such a turn-off. Okay, im here to cover up! HAHA.
Well, actually, i have nothing to say at all. Just that service was pretty okay.
And that im meeting Matthew later and Isaac next week and watching Transformers with Adha.
And that im very confused and very hurt. Im obsessed and stressed with this mess,
I cant think of things to write down, to type down.
And these fingertips are moving faster than these lips. So you can only imagine how jealous my mouth is!
Whats a crush to doooooooooooooooo. HAHA. Alright, i'll edit this post later. Wo ai ni!
P.S. I cant speak chinese properly anymore.

@ 9:15 AM

Hey world. Im a really happy kid! Haha. Twas my birthday yesterday,

And i didnt celebrate or anything yesterday. But i'll post about how i celebrated my birthday.

Friday, last day of school. :D Caught Conspiracy with my sunshine,

Sunshine left, i went to town to get Valerie's present. :D After which,

I headed back to Sembawang and yaddayaddayadda, then to AdmiralBar.

We drank. [: Played pokerrrrrrrr, and all that crazy lil things. Twas a lil quiet.

Then, it hit 11.45. I went outside to prepare to call Valerie. And 0000 approached,

I was happily calling Valerie, whined when she didnt pick up. And.

Got dragged by my husband into the bar. HAHA. And when i went in,

There was a cake on the table with 6 candles, happy birthday playing over the speakers,

And i fell on the floor. HAHA. Grand entrance, much! Haha. Okay.

So i know who planned the whole thing. [: And i wanna tell her i love her to bits. :D

Many thanks to AngQiyin for making my birthday a celebrated one. :D Also, a special one. [: Alright, credits later.

Well, then she told me i couldnt eat with a fork. So either i eat myself, or she feeds me. Which one will YOU choose?

I chose to eat it myself. So i began to put it near my face.. A slice of the dubious chocolate cake.. And..

WHAM. It went straight in my face. Thank goodness it was chilled and not too much got on my face. So being me,

I took the cake.. And threw it at her. At Sunshine. And wiped the remaining chocolate on my hands at Alvin. HAHA.

(Sorry about it, twas oily. Heh.) Well, then after that, myself Alvin and Qiyin all got a little high.

I started playing 5, 10, 20 with Alvin. Hahaha. Twas soooo funny! & fun. :D Hahaha. Havent seen him so high in a while now.

So, we played.. With Qiyin, with JunLong and Alvin covered for me. And i kept losing. HAHA. Then, me & Alvin got tipsy.

HAHA. Walking out of the bar, i was cartwheeling and he was running. Haha! And we got labelled two crazy idiots.

And we were both trying to walk straight. And he pushed me! And i fell. LOL. Haha, the walk down the hill was fun. :D

So then, Alvin left and myself, my husband, sunshine and steven left for Canberra Park. The walk there took forever, haha.

We went to 7-eleven. I kept sitting on the floor. LOL. I was sober okay! Haha. When we got to Canberra Park,

I played on the swing. Swung so high til i got giddy and wanted to puke. Haha. Then we just wasted the night away.

Got screened by the police, but they were nice. [: So then went my birthday night. Went home in the morning,

Slept for 2 hours, prepared for service. And my birthday was spent.. like any other saturday service day. Nothing special.

So.. Cons? I lost my locket. The locket that i love and treasure so much. Well, its alright. Sometimes, we gotta let go of things.

Another con? He forgot my birthday. Damn, i was really really sad.. Extremely sad.

But he wished me happy birthday last night. :D :D :D :D :D :D :D He said 'Happy birthday dawn!'

And that was the best gift ever.

Neither of my parents wished me happy birthday. My dad went on an overseas trip on my birthday. [:

Many other people forgot my birthday. But.. I dont really care. Even if it shows i dont mean much to them,

The friends that wished me happy birthday and spent my birthday with me really made my 15th birthday special.

I didnt do much.. But something was really special about my 15th birthday. I was a different person from years before.

And i got to spend it with lovely people. :D Enough said, it was a awesome birthday and i couldnt ask for more.

Credits.

All my love to..

My husband, Qiyin, for planning that surprise. :D You're the most awesome husband ever!

Alvin, Sunshine, Himyi and Steven who were there to celebrate my birthday with me. :D You guys made it special. Really.

Brenda, Laiyee, Nicholas, Jieyun, Jogina, Hweehong, Charlene, Agnes, Yicong, Emyi, Sherlyn, Sharmeel, Liting,

Waimin, Charis, Aunt, My sis! :D, Binhui, Sebas, Zyann, Melissa, Jeremiah, Younice, Isaac, Joyce and most of all, Adha,

For texting me birthday wishes. Also, Valerie, BrandonKang, Angela, Jingwen, Hazel, Desmond, Calvin, Carmen, Bernard for birthday wishes in person. [:

Thats about it. [: Its over now. And my wish came true. Maybe theres more to life after all. [:

Maybe life IS a big hooha.. Maybe birthdays are big hooha's.. Time to go get my IC! Hehe. Love ya'll.

I wanted so much to spend it with you,

But it doesnt matter now.

I know it makes no sense, but..

Having heard those three words from you..

It made my birthday complete.

I wished for my birthday to be special,

It came true.

I wished that you would remember my birthday,

It pretty much did come true.

And i wished that you would be happy,

Are you happy?

Wednesday, May 27, 2009 @ 9:48 PM

1. My left eye with the stupid infection is irritating the shit out of me.
2. I want an iPod classic for my birthday. But i cant have it.

@ 6:49 PM

Feeling so helpless, and theres nothing i can do about it.
Im bored. Gonna do this quiz. Kinda interesting. Dont care what you think. [:
Be honest people! If you really have never heard of them. Don't mark it.

ALTERNATIVE:
[x] Breaking Benjamin [x] Paramore [x] Panic! At The Disco
[x] Linkin Park [x] The Academy Is... [x] Coldplay [ ] Three Days Grace
[x] Yellowcard [x] 30 Seconds to Mars [ ] Chevelle
TOTAL SO FAR = 8

COUNTRY:
[x] Rascal Flatts [x] Carrie Underwood [ ] Leanne Rhymes [x] Garth Brooks [ ] Dixie Chicks
[ ] Kenny Chesney [ ] Tim McGraw [x] Faith Hill [ ] Shania Twain [] Johnny Cash
TOTAL SO FAR = 12

EMO:
[ ] Hawthorne Heights [ ] Chiodos [ ] Forgive Durden [ ] Amber Pacific
[x] The Red Jumpsuit Apparatus [ ] From First to Last [ ] Senses Fail [ ] Underoath
[ ] Something Corporate [ ] Hit The Lights [ ] Dear Whoever
TOTAL SO FAR = 13

INDIE:
[ ] The Hush Sound [ ] Eisley[ ] Death Cab for Cutie [x] Dashboard Confessional [x] The Killers
[ ] Yeah Yeah Yeahs [ ] Hot Hot Heat [x] Gym Class Heroes [ ] Franz Ferdinand
[ ] Modest Mouse
TOTAL SO FAR = 15

METAL:
[x] Slipknot [ ] System of a Down [ ] Disturbed [x] Metallica [x] Guns n' Roses
[x] Lamb of God [ ] Slayer [ ] Hatebreed [x] Killswitch Engage
TOTAL SO FAR = 20

POP:
[x] Teddy Geiger [x] Ashlee Simpson [x] Kelly Clarkson [x] Jesse McCartney [x] Avril Lavigne
[x] Pink [x] The Veronicas [x] Daniel Powter [x] James Blunt [x] Natasha Bedingfield
[x] Ryan Cabrera
TOTAL SO FAR = 31

POWERPOP/PUNK:
[x] Hellogoodbye [x] Cute is What We Aim for [ ] Cartel [x] The Click Five [x] Fall Out Boy
[ ] Rise Against [x] Good Charlotte [x] Bowling for Soup [\x] Relient K [ ] Anti - Flag
[x] Simple Plan
TOTAL SO FAR= 39

RAP:
[x] Ying Yang Twins [x] T.I. [x] Eminem [ ] 2pac [x] Jamie Foxx [x] Ludacris [ ] Lil' Jon
[ ] Outkast [x] 50 Cent [x] Kanye West [ ] Notorious B.I.G [ ] Young Jeezy
TOTAL SO FAR = 46

SKA:
[ ] reel big fish [ ] The Specials [ ] MAD Caddies [ ] Rancid [ ] The Aquabats [ ] Sublime
[x] No Doubt [ ] Madness [ ] Operation Ivy [x] Bob Marley
TOTAL SO FAR= 48

ROCK:
[x] Taking Back Sunday [x] All American Reject s[ ] Motion City Soundtrack
[x] Avenged Sevenfold [ ] Angels and Airwaves [x] Evanescence [x] My Chemical Romance
[ ] Drowning Pool [x] Green Day [x] Blink 182 [x] Madina Lake
TOTAL SO FAR = 56

CLASSIC ROCK :
[x] The Beatles [x] Led Zeppelin [x] The Rolling Stones [ ] The Cure [ ] The Who
[x] Pink Floyd [ ] Jimi Hendrix [ ] Queen [ ] Van Halen [ ] Poison [ ] ACDC
TOTAL = 60

Multiply your answer by 144 and then divide it by 100.
60 times 144 is.. then divided by 100.. is 86.4, yeap. Thats how much i know. Thats the end of that!
Well, skipped school today. Woke up not being able to open my left eye like yesterday. When i opened it,
I felt like i got infected by a pig. Or not. It was all red.. And it was all heavy-lid-ed. I felt like my veins were going to burst.
And i had a fever, and coughed like a wheezy old man. Haha. Okay, so i watched cartoons the whole day.
Y'know cartoons are awesome? HAHA. They kill time superbly fast! Speaking of killing time,
I find myself killing time alot. Isnt time supposed to be precious? I always said i would live everyday like my last.
It so happens that no matter what im doing, i dont mind it being my last day on Earth. Even if it meant watching cartoons all day.
But with all that time i've killed.. Could they be used for better purposes? To fulfil my dreams and such?
I used to have so many purposes in life. So many things i wanted to learn. Drums, guitar, dance. All that drive for life.
But now, i feel like im staring down at my life from the outside. Staring through the porch window into an empty apartment.
With nothing but one girl. Sitting in the corner. Losing the will to live every. single. second. Somehow, life's like a joke now.
A big. huge. joke. Im not saying i dont have friends and im some emo person and all that shit.
Im not saying i always waste time. I do spend my time well, no doubt. But..i dont find that my life is for a good cause.
Being in Hope, i spent all my time with people there. Literally all. Leaving Hope, i spend my time with a variety of people.
But its so cluttered. Im this to her, that to him, this to them, that to her. None of these friendships seem..
How do i put it? Seems so.. Superficial. Yes, superficial. Thats the word. I know some of them are supposed to be my goodfriends.
Yea, they are. But i dont just want good friends. I want best friends. True friends. Not just good friends and close friends.
I know its demanding. Why am i even saying all this in the first place? Gosh.

To hell with it. Nothing much today. Just hope my dad's okay. He seems to be stuck in a serious financial rut.
Oh wait. He's going to China during the holidays. Har d har. Hope he thinks about what he's doing, man.
And. A huge apology to Sherlyn for ditching you today! The next time i skip school, i'll send you to school first.
Not. Haha. And to Jieyun as well, as she said she felt really bored as everyone was asleep. HAHA.
Thats how it is nowadays. The daily routine. Smack your heads on the table, plug in some ear pieces, blast some good music.
And lull yourself to sleep. When the bell rings for break and dismissal, just wake up in grogginess and evacuate.
HAHA. Its okay. Two more days. Just two more days. Cant wait for End years to come. Im serious!
I find the exam-rush kinda funny. And anyway, its time to start pushing myself to study. I should stop getting one digit for Math.
And to hell with C's for English. And also C's for all those other subjects im supposed to be good at.
Im supposed to be mature and think. Not disappoint people around me. Though i highly doubt anyone is disappointed.
Except..God. Damn. Lets not go there for now. So anyway. Im horribly bored now. Im gonna go find something to do.
No not really.

Im becoming what i never wanted to be.

I've broken so many promises,

Gone against so many morals.

Regretting many decisions i have made.

Missing people that i let go.

What the hell am i doing here,

Stuck in this rut.

Im drained, empty and helpless.

Tuesday, May 26, 2009 @ 8:36 PM

Wilted like a rose.
Hey honey. You're so sweet. You have no idea how much bee's you eat. Erm, HAHA what?!
HAHA. Okay. ANYWAY. Did Archery in school today. [: It was really fun! Unexpected right.
But the school hall was a 12387398473987493812degrees suana. ]: Aside from that,
Maybe it was because of the presence of an exceptionally hot & c-ute instructor. :D Haha!
HE WEARS BRACES! Haha. I have a thing for guys with braces. TEEHEEEE! Okay ignore.
Ryan Higa used to wear braces. :D HAHA OKAY IGNORE. Well, chilled with JoyceLynBrenda after school.
Yadda yadda. Met Qiyin at Admiralty. Yadda yadda. And am now officially home. And being hyperactive.
Haha. I wonder what it feels like to be emotional all the time.. Like. Those emo people. Do they ever smile? :o
Do they ever feel adrenaline rushes? And what do they do when they get adrenaline rushes? Cut themselves! HAHA.
Do they laugh hysterically? Haha. Emo people are some thing i will never understand. Aint that right? :D
And why do people have moodswings? :o Swing swing swing. Sigh. Haha i finally have something to blog about.
But im apparently too hyper to think soundly. HAHAHAH. And i closed my helix piercing. D:
Twas way too painful. Probably hit a nerve. Doesnt matter, i dont wanna give people wrong impression anymore. :D
Maybe i'll tattoo my forehead with 'Ima good girl'. Wait. Isnt that contradictory?

I was young but i wasnt naive.

I watched helpless when you turned around to leave.

And i still have the pain that i have to carry.

A past so deep that you couldnt even bury if you tried.

After all this time, i'd never thought we'd be here.

When my love for you is blind, but i couldnt make you see it.

That i loved you more than you'll ever know.

When part of me died when i let you go.